today i burned my shoulders. actually, kind of a mixture of today and yesterday. i washed my car and went swimming. yes, lauren...i WASHED my CAR. some ancient eastern religion believes our desires and attachments to the world are what makes us unhappy and these are the two things they suggest to be happier ( Read more... )

why does it seem like i'm always looking for my keys? i think that's a huge sign of unorganization if you ask me. but maybe not...i always end up finding them in an obvious place, but i think i just get in the panic of thinking they could be anywhere in the house so i don't look hard enough in the place where they should be found. so, it's never ( Read more... )

lauren, i feel lonely without you. i think that's why i had to start writing in this stupid internet journal again. maybe that's why you write in it a lot, shaina. siblings being gone at college and all. anyhow tonight i went to a hookah bar! we went at one in the morning and i just got home (5:17 AM). silly, i know. it was so much fun, but ( Read more... )

the dog is back. she looks like a piece of cotton on speed. this is kind of a boring sidenote, but i just realized how symbolic my messy dresser is of my life. it's too complicated and weird for the typed word, but believe me it's really interesting. i'm gonna sleep before work.

hey to those in NY. shae's over so i'm not going to derive my attention away from him for too long, but i just wanted to see if this thing was still working. k bye.

i pulled all the kleenex out of the box today.

cora came in and talked to me about how i should believe in god this morning. then we had the "are you happy with your sexuality" talk. basically, this is another one of the few times where actually said what i've been thinking. then i discovered i was ranting for nothing because she didn't understand me and just kept shaking her head til the ( Read more... )

i don't want to be shallow, it's time to realize who i love and why i really love them. i figure it's always better to be quick to become best friends, but that really isn't it. the reason i love each of my best friends isn't different. i love them because they are there for me and i will always be there for them. why am i realizing this now?

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you'll never believe this. okay, there's this guy named robby. he works at disneyland and gave me his number. we met for a date...at disneyland. ALL he did was talk. basically he's boring and i didn't like him. i never called him again. i ended up running into robby at club thrust a while back where he gave me his number once again, only ( Read more... )

yeah i'm here at Lee's. she's currently in the shower and i'm on the compuTAH. it's 2 30 and i'm WIDE awake. sort of. maybe sleepy drunk/tired or whatever this mode is called my mind isn't capable of collecting thoughts in this mode that i can't remember the name of what it is called or referred to as. why did i just type that much? tooo many ( Read more... )