Just an update.

I have finally realised that there is no point in writing a blog expecting readers. I just can't bring myself to do something for someone else if not for myself. Yes, I am that selfish. I want to write for magazines as I don't want the trouble of having to "charm" someone into my writing..."glamour" them in vampiric ways (too much ( Read more... )

So...quick update to important news!

I finally bought a new computer! It's an awesome new laptop! That's my new baby: http://www.sainsburys.co.uk/sol/shop/technology/computing/laptops_and_netbooks/119507466_hewlett_packard_pavilion_dv62112sa_156_4gb320gb_notebook_black.html?primarySku=120041202But as nothing is sweet , I was supposed to be with it ( Read more... )

And I have moved!
I am on my own, in my own room and I didn't remember how reassuring and calming it is to know you can keep yourself company.
So here I am, contemplating life and planning my next steps! I've also started therapy, which has helped me a bit...I love it when my therapist says "What does that say about you, Andy?".

I have decided to ( Read more... )

So I'm twenty five and yes I do feel different. I'm maturing and less adapting ( Read more... )

Oh dear I'm getting old ( Read more... )

Indeed...thank God for saturday! And friday!

I've been literally superglued to the sofa...I've promised myself I'd watch the last 3 episodes of Battlestar Galactica today but I couldn't find myself doing it anytime soon. Instead, I've been watching the new episodes of Secret Diary of a Call Girl...which has been VERY sexy and nice! On Friday I spent ( Read more... )

So if you have come this far in the journal you know I constantly complain about my panic attacks, high anxietty levels and the fact that I've got this awful lot of stuff bottled up called "emotions" that I haven't learned how to deal with thus far ( Read more... )

OMG! I'm so surprised to see people I thought that stopped posting like prisilha and memots!
Thanks a lot for the words guys! I really needed it! :)

The blog was gathering dust so I didn't bother with it much but my oh my, do I have news?

Well, where to start? New Year's...I was drunk and spent it in a chatroom...depressing, huh?
I drank some wine... ( Read more... )

Rod had a weird dream where I sorta "withered". I had a dream soon after that I had an incurable illness...and I was about to die ( Read more... )

So i came out...I told some people from work that I'm gay and that I like the guy...just the ones I can trust of course. I could tell they know I'm gay...specially after one of them made a joke saying "Oh look who's gaydar is on!". No use beating around the bush after that one...it has been all lovely though...no one was mean or nasty or anything!

I ( Read more... )