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Life my biggest dilemma
Well, my life has taken a total different turn and it's messing with my head. I don't know how to explain the feelings in my heart. My mind is occupied 24/7 by this thought of death. It is consuming me day by day. I look at him and I Thank God for everything he's given me. I drive off to my daily duties, work and etc and death seams a bitter sweet ( Read more... ) -
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I wish I could be happy to go to work and practice all that I've worked for. I wish this feeling wouldn't take me away like this but it does and it makes me wonder. Why am I who I am? And was I really supposed to be this? Or I just have wrong expectations about human labor? Oh well I'm on my lunch and gotta go back Grrrrrrrr
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Birth-day
One year older. That's all I have to say. More responsabilities, more decisions to make, more work, and more worries. But after all, I did have a good time I guess. I got to see my "best" friend. It was awkward because I haven't seen her in so long and in the back of my head I was thinking of how bad of a friend I've been. I don't even send a text ( Read more... ) -
lessons learned
As I lay down with my husband for a long time I couldn't help to wonder why we didn't fall in love when we first met. Then today God gave me an answer. I was picturing everything that I went through when I wasn't with him and I came to the conclusion that It was the best thing to have fallen in love years after. God does things for a reason. ( Read more... ) -
Better
So I decided not to go for revenge. Hailey made me see that I was playing with fire and she is right. Well I'm not feeling 100% myself I feel some tiredness still but definitely better I would say. Ohhh my baby is just great. I just loved how he gave me what I wanted TWICE yesterday. How attached I am to him it scares me. It scares me a lot. Well ( Read more... ) -
Revenge
Is so evil but it sure does have a sweet taste. God forgive me in advance because I know I'll repent. Why do I still do it? You may ask. Well because I need to make my point across some peoples head.
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Ohh yeah I'll start writing more now so my mind speaks itself freely and so my good friend can see it whenever and I can get feedback too. Thank you
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Today
I always happen to managed to remember about livejournal whenever I feel uneasy. This picture is bugging me. Not because it is the past. I'm not stupid. I know it's the past and I'm obviously over it. If i wasn't over it. i wouldn't have married you. trust me. I've analyzed the causes of this annoyance and the most logical reason is that it is ( Read more... ) -
not trying enough
I believe i can do better than just tryingto recover from work on my days off. Im tired of myself. I'm being lazy. I don't like it. That's affecting me a lot in all kind of ways. The worst part is that i dont even try to do something. Idk why im not motivated to get up and do what i used to do. Clean. Play a little, do errands, cook a lot more. I ( Read more... )