when you're all out of tears is when you turn to sleeping

and when you toss and turn and the words go round and round in your head and you can't sleep is when you turn to watching movies

and then you cry

and the whole fucking cycle starts again.

and that's not how it's meant to be.

so this is the fucking raw truth.

I am avoiding everyone because I can't handle it right now

and I am quite fucking sure that no one gives a fuck and I am sure that no one has even fucking noticed my absence but this is what's happening

until next time,

lou

I crave a boy who would never be interested in me in one million years.

life sucks.

yeah i think i am doingokay.

i think so.

idon't knowbutithink so

i thinkiammessdup.

idont reall knowthough.

thisissopatheitc.

this should be a revenge entry

but i can't do it

i won't do it

I respect you and I won't do that

I'm looking for something.. something to be...

you cannot fight it

you cannot bring me down

you cannot leave me standing in the rain

and so this one if for my friend paul who has mentored me and paid me out and made me laugh and comforted me when I cried and found me alcohol and laughed in my face

I am glad that you gave me a chance

even though you laughed at my brown and green slushee from the caltex... but i know that you were just jealous

so this is it. this is me. maybe I am dark, but maybe i don't know anything else.

I am not going to sit here and talk about the great marks i get for assignments or ponies or unicorns or making a cake out of rainbows and smiles, I want to talk about things that matter to me and things that are important and things that I don't want to say to you ( Read more... )

Who has the magical solution???

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so this is it. this is it. no one has any real answers. no one really knows what is going on.

my whole life is full of hypothetical situations and people simply guessing what's going on.

I need something real. I need to be surrounded by real things. I don't need to be told things that may not ( Read more... )

so I fucked up.

I fucked up.

I FUCKING GET IT.