I just wanted to say, it's fine that everyone lies all the time. No really, I think it's normal. But, I mean, please. Don't make it so obvious sometimes. Your intentions will get all fucked up and no one will be able to get when you're being passive anymore. Even I won't. I think I had an epiphany today during chemistry. It doesn't really make ( Read more... )

Ragtime went well. I just got some emails saying that I got a short essay, and a poem published in this randomy magazine that I submitted to and they are going to pay me money for the electoral rights. I also got another email from a North Carolina based arts magazine that I submitted a poem to a few weeks that they are going to print in the may ( Read more... )

Cat Power cancelled her entire tour and I had press tickets. Cool, alcohol problems. cool. Ragtime is going up this week, I think it will go well. I really can't stand insecure people who try to cope with their lack of trust in themselves and in other people by shutting things out and being control freaks to the point on insanity. I try to have ( Read more... )

I wish that I had more time to just sit in my room. And write. And write. And play music. And make art projects. And write. And probably think for a while too. I hate how I feel like school and homework eat up all of my time. I hate how I let it. I can't wait for summer. Summer summer summer summer. It is really cold is my house. I want to go bake ( Read more... )

hey, i've got a lot of really great friends. the real kind i think. everything is so distracting, but really I think that I need a whole lot of distraction. all of the time almost. anyone who wants to go on some adventures on days where the weather is almost warm...well yeah, i would be into that.

I just feel really really terrible and wish that anyone could talk some sense into me and make things feel like they are going to be okay again because this is not who i am and it's not who i ever was. I just wish I knew what would help and make everything stop. It's like my semi-supressive self is in europe having coctails with someone terribly ( Read more... )

I just want midterms to be done so I can start going on adventures again. I wish it made more sense for me to go down to NYC this weekend, but it doesn't really make any. at all. Meh, high school. Ithaca/Cornell/NYC/California over february break? I'm tired.

I just have to say...I really DO do this all the time. I don't think I can ask for anything. Unfortunately. I think i actually mean that. Thank you for restoring my faith. May you some day have other purposes.

Love,

~Leah

Okay so today was good. I think. I feel like weird and ironic things are happening to me left and right. I sort of love it. I walked to Willie's after school in the pouring rain. He gave me pants to wear since mine were wet and on my way down from his bathroom I PLUMMETTED down the entire stair case. On my ass. It was like a fucking slide at a ( Read more... )

I really enjoy traveling. Getting off buses and seeing faces I've never seen in my life and probably will never see again in my life. What kind of man were you Roy Rogers? I have to stop and slow down and ask myself what the fuck is really going on. This weather, it hurts me.