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one more week of forced insomnia
one more week.

so uhh, other then being more exauhst more often then i have ver been in my life, caring less and less and worrying more about school then i ever have, and being more lost and confused about everything from what day it is to wiehter or not im hungy to what i am going to do for the rest of my life, some new things have happened recently ( Read more... )

wow its been one month and one day since i last posted ( Read more... )

today kinda sucked, alot. but it oddly was not as bad as it could have been. it seems that things kinda fell into place with the Captain Squeegee show. its really hard not to smile and be happy when you watch them. but i was still pretty quit and melancholy all day, i guess thats normal after being dumped.... again. i think im getting use to this ( Read more... )

Today was pretty amazing. i didnt get to sleep till about 4 am, and in my slumber i was very rudely woken up by three masked intruders holding me down, putting a pillow case over my head, and zip-tying my hands and feet together. It would later be revealed to me that their masked turned out to be paper cutouts of a picture of my face, and the same ( Read more... )

So i've been dating this girl named lauren for maybe 3 or four weeks now (i need to figure that out), and i think it is going amazingly. This seems to be my first taste of an actual working relationship. You know the kind where we actually see each other on a regular basis and not just during school hours. I go to her house and she comes to mine. ( Read more... )

things have been going alright with me. Ive continued to not be employed, thats not working out so well because at the same time i continue to be further into debt and poorness. my cars alternator stopped working the other day so i had to spend a few hours replacing that yesterday. what a messy job. i was black from my finger tips to my sleeves ( Read more... )

how awkward is it to ask a friend out or have them ask you out while you guys are hanging out when the answer is no? i would imagine the rest of the time you guys are hanging out that day and the next few times would be incredibly weird, but i dont know. every time i have ever asked a girl out i was so much of a pussy that i waited until it was ( Read more... )

heh, i guess my paranoia was correct. she was disinterested.

oh well, shit happens.

I was looking through some of the poems and stuff i had written in the past. its funny how shitty they are. its also kinda funny remembering how in love i was or thought i was. How we thought we would be together forever. at 16 and 15. haha ( Read more... )