I know better. This is the moment when life shows me I should know better. I want so badly to push the snooze button, because that means I get to believe in the lie that I can be happy. That I can feel happy. I think all the forewarnings and evidence aside, I should just know better than to think , or believe for that matter, that somebody could ( Read more... )

Yeahh, its been an effin year almost since I've had a job. This one I'm kinda excited about ( Read more... )

I've got my own place, I live in Wasilla, and my life sucks. I work 24/7 round the clock, I barely have time for my friends, I love to cook, which only happens around 10 p.m.ish when I usually get home from one of my jobs, and hopefully in the end, I'll be out of here with the money I've saved up. Which is, by the way, a lot of money. But right now ( Read more... )

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Dear. God. No.

I'm having thanksgiving with Mary and her family. This should be crazy. Gotta love those colored folks. haha. Happy Thanksgiving everyone, and remember, us colored people are the ones who slaved away for years puttin food on your tables, carvin the turkey and mashin them potatoes. Today we celebrate the white man taking the indians land away for ( Read more... )

Friday
Worked all day. Went and talked with my step mom and dad before they left for the weekend. Rented movies and watched em alone. Made a take n bake pizza from work. Restless night alone in the wilderness haha.

SaturdayWorked and got off pretty early, went to the post office and then to get an application for Lowe's. Cleaned the house, cooked ( Read more... )

Last night was so hard for me. I let my dad push me over my own edge. I found myself alone in the dark, lying on my bed, talking to a tape recorder. I kept replaying my words, taking in all that I was feeling, everything I found to be so hard to understand before. Dad doesn't let me talk on the telly. Not only do I live in the middle of nowhere, I ( Read more... )

Everything just gets better with time, in my opinion. I can't give too much of how I feel away, but I know that I felt this strange freedom. Being yourself can be so hard sometimes, but I've learned to just close my eyes and not care. Not worry about what someone will think of what I say or do. This is my life, and instead of being afraid and ( Read more... )

Totally my favorite song right now, surprisingly ( Read more... )

I just watched Ashlee Simpson's "performance" on SNL. That was some funny, funny sh**. I'm pretty tired right now, and gotta get up early to go to work, so ( Read more... )