I think I'm gonna be ok ...
I think I might make it ...
I think I can learn to breathe again ...
I really hope I'm not wrong ...

Being in love makes this so much harder ... yet in a way so simple. It's crazy how love is ... sometimes it hurts ... but then there is that feeling of knowing you care so much about someone and it makes you all fuzzy inside. Knowing you would do anything for that person's happiness is a feeling you can't explain. I don't know ... I'm just thinking ( Read more... )

Someone give me an answer ... b/c it hurts to much to think any more.

SO I just woke up ... after sleep 2 1/2 hours ... I'm wide awake and have no incentive to do anything. I think I will call Steve in a half an hour ... I need to paint ... but hey, oh well ... I'm in a pissy/shitty mood tonight so PEOPLE RESPOND TO MY ENTRIES. Now no one will even more! Woo hoo! Dawn, get home from school so we can chat!! I need ( Read more... )

Someday we'll find it ( Read more... )

SO I can't sleep ... way too much going on in my stupid head ... I really hate thinking ... it's too painful. SO my night is going to be long and lonely ... luckily Dawn in on line so I can talk to her and I'm not just sitting here staring @ a blank screen wishing I had someone to talk to ...

SO I almost decided to delete LJ ... but I guess I won't b/c I'd miss Dawn and I'd miss reading Joe's drunken entries that you really can't read ... so yea, I have spent my day going through all the shit in my room and cleaning all the bad memories out ... most likely I won't get them all, but I am trying ... too many photos and notes to keep. I am ( Read more... )

I'm here but not really ( Read more... )

I think I've fallen too far ...
I think I've lost it all ...
I think I've giving up ...
I think I've finally died.

I am definately half asleep ... I hate waking up ... especially when I'm sick. But oh well ...

I'm off to the Abby tonight ... not sure who with seeings as I have no friends ... but I'll figure something out ... someone to play some rummie with.

Off to school with me ...
Darkness and Quiet thoughts ...