A depressive mood has really hit me today and I don't know why. Well I do and I don't. Sometimes it's like I can't handle all of this anymore. I can't handle being alive or trying to not cut or trying to be happy. I can't handle getting hurt again or feeling like there's hope and then something happens and all that hope goes away. But it's life ( Read more... )

So I kind of figured that if I am/was pregnant, I probably killed it since I don't take care of myself whatsoever and because of my pills. I'm still going to get a test to make sure though. But I wasn't ready to have a baby anyway ( Read more... )

I fucking hate it when mom gives me 298982747824 things to do when it's supposed to be my day "off" from school because I'm sick. Apparently "off" doesn't mean shit. It just really annoys me because she's so damn fucking dependent on me and I hate that. I hate it when people are that dependent on me, especially because I usually end up forgetting ( Read more... )

So I was woken up at 3 in the morning... rather, 2:57 this morning by my phone... vibrating. It was the guy I like. He was like, "Hey, what's up?" And I was like, "Dude, I was sleeping" so he told me that he was too but he woke up and thought of me or some shit like that. So we talked for a while, me being half groggy and trying to be quiet and not ( Read more... )

I'm in such a good fucking mood! Even though some shit went down with Toni and Jace the other night. Fuck them though. Andy, Ash and I are so not really talking to Toni anymore because she's being a fucking idiot. Jace is an asshole too ( Read more... )

I love it when my house turns into a war zone. Apparently mom and dad had ANOTHER fight. Both of them are so fucking childish... mainly mom right now. I'm not taking sides or anything though. It's their problem if they fight or not and I won't get in the middle of everything AGAIN. Ana and I have gone through this a bunch of times and their fights ( Read more... )

Last night was so fucking nice ( Read more... )

I was in a really good mood yesterday until Jose and I talked. I mean, everything was fine for a while -- I was really hyper and stuff but then he told me they might move but I didn't think much of it because we've discussed this before and he told me it would probably be Pomona or somewhere around there. Then he told me it might be to Michigan or ( Read more... )

So I finally figured out why I didn't stop talking to Veronica sooner. We hung out so then later on we could make out and scratch/bite the hell out of each other. Ash, and Tim kind of reminded me of all the times Veronica slept over here and we'd both wake up sore, scratched and with hickeys. It's kind of funny now that I think of it but not in a ( Read more... )

I'm in a really good mood today even though this chick from my art class pissed me the fuck off this morning. She's such a big fucking liar, urgh. I don't like liars ( Read more... )