MATES:

In light of my recent breakup, I’m trying to stay positive. I’m trying to accept that, though it still hurts, it is for the best. It is one of the necessary evils of living and learning. I’m taking “Anatomy of a Breakup” off my page because it does me no good to constantly be focused on how my relationship failed. There are still twinges of ( Read more... )

So Carson Daily has regained some of my respect. He went back on air after the writer's strike with no script so that half of his staff wouldn't be fired. Obviously his show would be one of the first to go because, let's face it, it's crap-tastic. I was amused to see him struggling to fill up the time yet, as an actor myself, I was quite stressed  ( Read more... )

 
Is it just a feeling? How would you define it? This is a very good question to pose for myself. There was a reason why I never said the word to my ex. Even after a year, I still never said “I love you.” Love isn’t just a longing for another person. It’s not the feeling you get when someone understands you or even when someone is kind to you.

I don ( Read more... )

 
I can’t remember who asked me, but I know that one of my friends asked me once if I honestly ever think that I am better than certain people. The thing is,… I don’t think of it in that way.

This question kind of resurfaced today when I was driving on my way to work thinking about the people who I don’t talk to anymore. I am not the type of person ( Read more... )

2:56am, 61ºF

I ran my first ever 5k straight tonight. I don’t exactly know why I waited until so early in the morning. (actually due to it being too hot during the day, working late, updating my resume, and not being able to sleep) But anyway… I did it.

Now, I know it doesn’t seem like that big of an accomplishment to people who run all the time. I ( Read more... )

When the breakup happened, one thing that really sticks out in my mind is something that my father said to me, “That’s just men.” It wasn’t the usual father wanting to protect his baby girl, or wanting to kill the guy who hurt her so maliciously. No, it was “That’s just men.”

That is sad and disgusting, and it has made me really pay attention to ( Read more... )

I had a wonderful lunch date with my two girl friends today. We sat for nearly 4 hours just conversing. (Oh, how I love real conversations with real people!) We vented, we related, we gave and got advice. We also had the rare opportunity to witness two women who are old enough to know better get into a huge catfight.

But there were several things ( Read more... )

I came to a realization today. I was listening to Deathbed off the new Relienk K album. I was listening to the last part where Jon Forman sings as Jesus:

I am the way.
Follow me and take my hand.
I am the truth.
Embrace me and you’ll understand.
I am the light
And for me you’ll live again.
For I am love

It really got me to thinking. For all of the ( Read more... )

Goodbye world. There is nothing more obvious than the fact that I don’t belong here. That I am not of this world. I cannot call this place my home because a home welcomes you and this world has been far, far from a welcome place to me. So, goodbye world. Hello purgatory. This is just a place of continuous waiting. Waiting for life, waiting for love ( Read more... )

I was watching this show on The History Channel today about the 60s and 70s, the hippy movement and it’s impact on culture and the nation and the music of that generation including Woodstock. It just got me thinking. I look back at that time and think there was so much passion in the nation. People with strong convictions and struggling for some ( Read more... )