~ woah its been almost a month since i updated this thing. so much has been goin on its nuts. well im workin 40+ hrs a week now yea subway again but im bouncin b/w 3 and it sucks cuz i want to have a better job but hey it pays the bills ( Read more... )

~ josh and i basically just relaxed and watched survivor and csi...then we decided to go to honey farms for a walk cuz its nyce out and to get some soda. josh wasnt impressed by the cost of the soda there so as we were walkin to cumbies we saw katy and she gave me and josh a ride to cumbies then home. along the way she lets me kno that she saw rich ( Read more... )

~ ive been feelin like crap for a while now. a few days ago katy and i went to mickey d's and i got madd sick from the burger when i got home. i duno and now none of my food will digest. sucks but josh made me some kick ass food last nyte and pumpkin pie. well this morning, i felt real sick so josh rubbed my back and got me juice and after i 'got ( Read more... )

~ well last nyte my mom wanted to get me a pregnancy test to see if i was pregnant or not and yep i most deffinitly am! i dont kno exactly how i feel. im so scared. i already have a 13 month old. how can i have another one. cameron is a handful and to deal wit two. wholy hell. oh and on top of that josh wants to split until i have the baby. sound ( Read more... )

~ well things are EXTREAMLY rocky in the love dept. josh is in a funk and im in a funk and hell even cameron is in a funk ( Read more... )

~ well after my huge blow up, i do feel a bit better. and it felt pretty damn good when amanda knows where im coming from and actually cares. its about damn tyme ppl wake up and smell the coffee. life aint easy for me OR amanda. same shyt same life just different dayz ( Read more... )

~ omg i hate ppl so much rite now. im sick of being called a bitch a disgrace a mistake and especially a horrible mom. i am tryin so hard to do what most ppl my age are totally incapable of. being a full time mom part time student and a personal punchin bag both verbally and physically for someone who is supposed to love me and want to marry me. i ( Read more... )

~ omg i went shoppin to find cameron a costume...kinda late...but its an adorable vampire costume. its the cutest thing. im gonna slick his hair back and put a widows peak on his head and little fangs. oh i cant wait its gonna be so cute. josh doesnt kno yet. and then the both of us are gonna dress him up when we go trick or treating ( Read more... )

~ red sox kicked cards BUTT ~

~ watchin the sox already kick some cardinal ass! 4-0 woop woop ( Read more... )