even though i don't have anything interesting to say i promised to update my journal.Let me see today i went to the doctor so that they could run pulmonary tests on me. You see i have had asthma since i was 11 and they want to make sure my asthma is well controlled with the medications they are giving me. other than that i just went to visit my ( Read more... )

Ok i am really going to try to update this thing alot more. i am going to see if i can update it every other day . hopefully i will get into the habit of updating

My gosh i haven't updated in ages. not that i wrote in here much anyways. Well let me see where do i start. Oh I know i got a job.not the best of jobs since it is still technically telemarketing but the owners rather call it telefundraising. Either way it pays for the bills I don't care much. Besides that both my girls got sick which was awful ( Read more... )

I really haven't been able to enjoy christmas.I miss my mother so much. it has been especially hurtful this year. even though she passed on last october my baby was a newborn and i didn't have much time to grieve, now that she is a year old i think that not grieving or letting myself grieve like i should is all coming back to me. i miss her so

i can't believe tommorow is christmas eve and yet it still hasn't hit me doesn't seem like christmas to me this year time has flown by

i am so not in the mood for this whole holiday thing. I wish i could be more excited for my girls but i am so depressed. I miss my mother like crazy. i haven't even put up the christmas tree it is just sitting in the box in the closet, i just don't feel like putting it up or going christmas shopping

my goodness i am so suprised at myself writing in my journal 2 days in a row. I don't feel in the christmas spirit and was wondering if there is something wrong with me maybe it has to do with the loss of my mother i am not sure. I was always excitied around christmas time but this year it doesn't feel right

I haven't been able to update much and especially now that lj keeps having problems but i am writing to let people know that i am alive even though this flu is getting the best of me

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i am so happy my honey proposed on sat nov 16 we aren't planning to get married till maybe valentines day 2004 we will see i am going to see if i ca ">n post a pic of my ring