this is my last entry on LJ. sad. i only used it four or five times. but yeah. i feel getting online only to talk about a shitty day that had nothing to do with anything interesting wasn't worth it. or it jsut wasn't as cool as it used to be. i will now be expressing my thoughts in a little black notebook. yeah. if you wanna read it just tell me. i ( Read more... )

hello. i'm typing this entry on my new laptop. woohoo! seriously. i finally have a laptop. tomorrow morning will be a hassle cause i need to put all my files onto this thing. just the essentials. music. music. uhhh... poems. and a game or two. or three. yeah. i got some clothes. and studded belts and bracelets. yeah. coolness. i plan to convince ( Read more... )

christmas sucks. too much happiness. too much usage. (ppl being used to gain maony for one's own well being) [over-marketing] {SHOP SHOP SHOP} there. some ppl are stupid. had to put teh definitions in there somehow. yeah. so i suffer from holiday depression. those are some of my factors. i'm not suffering because of teh usuall holday depression ( Read more... )

[x] I hurt a lot ( Read more... )

hello. usual day. i guess. if usual has become the never ending search for answers yet getting nowhere. yeah. i got an 88 on the history test. that's like a B. that's not good. i usually get in the 90's on tests. yeah. i've been in really bad moods lately. i'm moody. that's what caitie used to say. i can be described as moody. some ppl don't take ( Read more... )

i'm bored. i say stressed as my emotion. the past three weeks have been hell. i'm probably exaggerating. i don't know. they've been bad. we broke up twice. in the past three weeks. my mom's been gone. i've had at least three breakdowns. in the past three weeks. i've thought about a lot of things. how i feel. what i want. what i need. what i deserve ( Read more... )

You Know You're Right by Nirvana. it's a very good song. i wanna play it now. i wonder if james wants to. we've decided we're gonna play heart-shaped box, but i also wanna play you know you're right. that'd be cool. i'd be somewhat happy. cause i can't sing. last night i was teaching myself to sing. it was cool. but everytime someone called i had ( Read more... )

hello. jealousy. good word fits in right now. but so does irritated and envious? i don't know. i hate school. i would say the only person who i know there that's not causing me to be all 'fuck you' and 'fck everyone' and 'fuck everything' would be tiffany. she's a senior. anyone who knows me is probably gonna be like "nuh uh. she's not a senior!" ( Read more... )