Life becomes what you make of it... seems pretty obvious, right? Well guess what, ook me 22 and a half years to truely understand what that meant. Long have I looked to the mirror, and questioned why I'm stuck in this cycle of self-destruction. Why do I work a shitty job? Why don't I have and education? Why am I poor, and why do I hate myself ( Read more... )

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HA!!! Sherry may have gotten a tat before I did, but mine is BIGGER ( Read more... )

a vacant stare accross a room,
abundant with pain and lies
my heart still aches,
yet I do not desire
to touch
to feel
to love you again.
the memories scream in my ear
the scars I caused because of you
My mind healthier now
but still is all disease.

almost 2 days without a cigg...

44 hours

2640 min

158400 seconds

Went out to the club lst night, and I had an absolute BLAST!!! Melanie introduced me to her friend megan, who is really cool, and she took me out last night... very fun. She's also taking me to canada 2nite for a fetish ball, which should be loads of fun. It's 6:15 am, and I'm on an hour sleep. I don't really know WHY I wanted to wake up this ( Read more... )

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Dude, kick ass... went to the drive in, got high, saw scooby doo, and half of spider man... the funniest thing happened. Halfway through SM, the cheesevans battery went dead, and we all just sat through the rest of the movie trying to hear everyone elses radio. From what I could hear, it was a kick ass movie ( Read more... )

Ok, so lately, I can't get Melanie out of my head. She's so cool and fun to talk to, even if it is online, or being screamed to at a club. She has this aura around her, I remember seeing it the first time I met her. I knew I had to talk to her. And blah blah blah, Peter blew a big chance with her, all for an annoying poker. Fridays lately have ( Read more... )