I feel it moving, shifting, rearanging, and invading. It takes over all of me. I don't know what it is, what it wants, and what it does to me. Is it a parasite? AM I just a host? Or is it a part of me, it grew from me, and is everything that I am? It makes me hate, and wish to destroy, lust for destruction and pray for death ( Read more... )

descending from the gleam of heaven, I glance over and see pain, suffering, and misery. A far cry from the perpetual bliss found in my afterlife. It was then that I was reborn in an infant. I grew older and wiser as I began a new life, blessed with knowledge of those past, and yet cursed at the very same time. I despise this world, it's acrid ( Read more... )

I just got in a little bittle ago from a goodbye party for some people at work. It sucked, why do I go to these things? I hate everyone I work with (except U jessie), I hate drunk people, and someone always steals my smokes. Grrr. I dunno, maybe I should stop going to these things, and just start smoking more pot... sounds like a good idea to ( Read more... )

So there I was, mindin my own fuckin business when I got a phone call from what said was jessie... I pick it up, and theres becky on Jessies fuckin phone, askin me why I left her a nasty voice mail. Fuck her, fuck her and her ignorance. Shes nothing but one big fuckin bitch who loves to play mind games ( Read more... )

Well, yes, I am alive, no, I am not well. Little confused about a few things. Am I smoking too much pot for my own good? Am I really as depressed as I think I am? why must I be so constantly alone....... sex was a good thing at one point, but thats just not gonna happen, now is it? Life has stopped being so much fun, and more-so a task. I ( Read more... )

So I'm mad stoned right now, eating bread, listening to a song called "Christfuck".
I would make my momma so proud.
Oh, yeah... Um, I found out my biological mom has pnemonia, and isn't doing to good. I'm not sure how I feel about this. very mixed emotions... very odd. Can't deal right now.

I've had enough of a lot of people. And not so much of themselves, just the situations that occur as a result. everybody sucks ass, even myself. I found a lot of hate today. I didn't know it was there before. It came out of it's hibernation and took it's place in me. I can't deal with all this shit anymore, I'm so sick of it. I started ( Read more... )

The last few days/weeks have been odd. Everyones depressed, everythings fucked up, and nothing is happeneing with the band, maybe it's time I looked elsewhere. Fuck everybody

Last night was fucked up. Jess, Al, Sher and I drove out to east bumblefuck to play pool with jess's friends. after like, a 45 min drive, we get to this place, and my first reaction was "What the fuck..?" This "Pool Hall", or as Sher said, Pool Ball, was so messed up, brightly lit, no music, and the clientel looked like a fuckin Pimpercrombie ( Read more... )

Last night was fucked up. Jess, Al, Sher and I drove out to east bumblefuck to play pool with jess's friends. after like, a 45 min drive, we get to this place, and my first reaction was "What the fuck..?" This "Pool Hall", or as Sher said, Pool Ball, was so messed up, brightly lit, no music, and the clientel looked like a fuckin Pimpercrombie ( Read more... )