One of my biggest pet peeves is when people are mad at you.. but they don't tell you!  Obviously you know when someone isn't speaking to you, it's pretty easy to figure out.. but it's not always easy to figure out why they are mad.. even if you do know why they are mad, why can't they just come out and tell you??  I don't get it!  It's really just ( Read more... )

This rain is getting ridiculous.. everywhere around me is flooded.. I don't even know if I am going to be able to get to work today.. because going to work requires crossing the merimack river.. which is overflowing.. I mean, I like rain.. I like thunderstorms.. I like walking in the rain.. but it's been raining for like a week now.. and it's not ( Read more... )

so.. we sold our house.. finally.. it's been on the market since October.. and it sold saturday.. I'm kinda really not happy about it.. I don't want to live here.. I don't like being in Dracut.. but now I have to actually switch my ID over to NH.. so I'm officially a New Hampshirian.. even though I basically was anyway.. but I've been pretending to ( Read more... )

so apparently I'm ruining my fathers life.. (anyone in my family that reads this.. you have no business telling anyone what i say..) who screams at their daughter, calls her horrible names, and tells her she's ruining his life just because it's raining out??? I mean seriously... how is it my fault that it's raining? I may be crazy.. but I can't ( Read more... )

There is a huge difference between reality and thoughts.. and sometimes the thoughts, the feelings, the dreams/nightmares.. sometimes they all seem much too real.. but I know they aren't.. I know they are just thoughts.. and nothing will come of them.. but it scares me.. and sometimes I don't realize how scared I am of everything going on in my ( Read more... )

so I'm an asshole.. I told someone that has been there for me, kinda more than anyone else has in a long time.. that I kinda hate him.. and that I'm not going to talk to him anymore.. I haven't really been able to figure out why I have been such an ass to him.. because I don't hate him.. and of course I still want to talk to him.. maybe it's ( Read more... )

so it's 230 in the morning.. on cinco de seis.. cause that's what us ladies are callin it these days.. forget the quatro de mayo and the seis de mayo.. we got the cinco de quatro and the cinco de seis.. and let me tell you.. this was one amazing fucking evening.. asshole, kings, 90s music power hour, wiffle ball til just now.. i heart the 10C ( Read more... )

I'm starting to get really sad that all of my friends are graduating.. and I'm not.. This has been the most amazing year of my life.. and it's all ending.. I know that next year.. student teaching is going to make it so that I won't be able to go this much anyway... but still.. I'm really going to miss my friends. Lots of stuff has happened ( Read more... )

I'm having a really hard time right now.. I'm soo stressed out.. so overwhelmed.. so afraid of what the end of this semester brings.. I don't know what to do with myself right now.. I shouldn't even be writing, but I have to.. if I don't, I might break down.. I might break down anyway.. I spent over 11 hours doing school work today and I'm still ( Read more... )

I've been thinking a lot lately.. especially about the people that I care about.. and sometimes I wonder, do they know how much I care about them? I don't know.. there are some people that have made my life worth living lately.. and I just feel like I've made everyone hate me.. or i've annoyed them.. or worried and scared them..  and I just want ( Read more... )