so Camp Paul ended on Friday...  Every year I say that I'm not going back and I dread the first week.. but then once it's half over, I start to get really sad that it's almost done.  I love working with the kids.  It's my passion.  I couldn't imagine not seeing these kids every year.  They are thinking of changing the way it is run this coming year ( Read more... )

I'm really not doing so great.  I am very worn out, very stressed out.  I'm having a hard time dealing with things because I don't have the time to let things settle.. so once I actually have a few moments to myself everything starts crashing down around me.  I don't know what is wrong with me.  I randomly just start to cry now.  I become ( Read more... )

so I'm not so sure that this whole being positive thing is working for me... I feel like I'm making excuses for why I shouldn't be upset about things, or why I shouldn't care about the shitty things going on in my life...  and it's gotten to the point that someone asked me a simple question and I started to cry...  I need to find a happy medium ( Read more... )

There is something about your sister telling you that she once used your tooth brush to clean the toilet that makes you want to go out and buy a new toothbrush.. even if she said she was joking.. even if someone tells you it’s a quote from a movie..  it doesn’t matter..  I can see her doing it in her “you aren’t allowed to speak in my presence” ( Read more... )

So.. things have been kinda crazy around here.. I fucked up my left foot pretty bad last Monday (the 12th).. it’s still a little swollen and a bit black and blue..  I don’t really know what happened.. I was just walking down stairs and my foot completely gave out on me and I fell..  I’m not completely cripple though.. I don’t need a cast (well, I ( Read more... )

So lots and lots has been going on in the past week or so..  I'm officially moved into Salem, NH..   crazy!  I have a brand new bedroom set..  It's pretty! http://www.mybobs.com/catalog/set_view.asp?packageid=378&room=bedroom  It's a little weird staying there by myself right now... but that's okay..  I can deal for a few more days..  Jaye has been ( Read more... )

so i'm really sick of this whole moving thing..  especially since my parents have done no packing whatsoever..  which means i have nothing here... all my stuff is in all different places.. and i can't even attempt to start sorting through it yet because my dad is putting in all new carpets in the house.. which means i can't live there yet which ( Read more... )

I was reading through my old journals before I packed them to bring to Salem.. and as I read, I wasn't so sure that I believed half of it... and I lived it!   All of the things that I've been through, all of the things I've done.. if I wrote a book.. I don't think anyone would believe it.. there isn't anyone that knows everything about me, except ( Read more... )

i just want to give up on everything... 

So I'm home from Florida.. and I already want to go back..  It was great to hang out with Miss Pamela.. I completely understand why she moved down there.  There is sooo much to do in Orlando.  I wish I were done school and I could move away.. but it seems like that will never happen..  one more year...........    Anyway.. I took no pictures in ( Read more... )