What do you do if you feel like you will never get out of the rut you are in? I hate my job but I actually never see my self leaving it. and I hate that. I know we are getting married but I dont see it actually ever happening. and I dont know if i can if things keep going the way they are. and I know its cause his mom is still here. Its not that I ( Read more... )

Well today went good I had an ok day at target but my fucking other job pissed me off. so the youngest kid tells his grandmother that I am mean and I scream at them and call them stupid and retarded and tell them to shut up and lock them in their room all day long. and guess what folks she believed him. luckly the mom didnt and he confessed he lied ( Read more... )

so not much another annoying day at work. I dont have any leadership role at work but then the days they need me in charge no one listens because they dont have to listen to me normally. it sucks. and this one kid I about killed he had the attention span of like 2 sec. you couldnt show him anything. oh well whatever I need to go to bed now have to ( Read more... )

so not much today played with median tonight. it was fun she is sooo cute. right now the dog is licking her feet and she is laughing pretty hard. which doesnt help my situation becuase it makes me want one more. whatever....

WHY!!!! Why cant I get over the fact that he doesnt want me to be his friend he doesnt want anything to do with me and I will never see or talk to him again? Why does he not want to talk to me? why is she jealous? there should be know reason I dont know her but I dont like her. I wish I knew what the hell was going through his head. we used to be ( Read more... )

DAMN PEOPLE....So somebody hit my car while I was at work fucking people why the hell would some one do that and just run off. do you know have any common curtsey to leave a note or tell someone? stupid fuckers. so I also didnt get this really awesome job I was hopeing to get but no of course not. god damn it. why is today so damn stupid ( Read more... )

So I know its been forever I have been so busy planning my wedding and working two jobs. life has been so crazy do you ever wish you can just push the pause button. and take a breath because life is just moving way too fast and you feel like you are missing it?
I just need to take a breather

Just me

So its time.... Andrew and I are going to California to go see his family. so Here goes to my long trip down there. because driving is so much fun..!!!!!! so here goes nothing.
wish me luck.

He finally agreed on a date I am finally getting married on May 19th 2007. I know its a year a way but it takes that long to plan one. so Ali we need to go out and look at dresses. we should do it soon while I am not working. give me a call. bye to excited to write.
~Macy

So I its been awhile. I have been busy with work and homework. I hate school work I dont understand it. English was not my best subject in high school. so why the fuck would I want to learn it right now. stupid people. but If I want to become a court reporter then I need english. thats all for today ( Read more... )