In another year I can put an end to this and seeing the people around me today I'm very excited. In general I"m just excited. Despite everything I"m going to a good med school and I have everything taken care of. I've never been so happy to never have to see a few people ever again. And I've never been so excited for my friends who've managed to ( Read more... )

At it’s like past 6am, and I’m proud to say at exactly 6:08 I got the fricken 3500 that I needed to be a silver axe. I have EXACTLY 3500. Today should be interesting. The day is always interesting when I’m running on absolutely no sleep and had a rough night behind me, and a potential rough one ahead of me. I’m slowly collecting good players on my ( Read more... )

It’s another one of those Sunday nights where I’m up doing laundry, and twirling the overly curly ends of my stress-damaged hair around a free finger. This sucks. Everything sucks. This semester has been terrible. I’d rather sit on my ass and watch porn all day because things are ridiculous. I think I have a rough draft of a final paper due this ( Read more... )

This has been a ridiculously stressful stretch of things. I feel like at any moment someone is going to say the wrong thing and that I’m going to break down into a storm of tears and inconsolability. I honestly don’t know how I’m going to get through things without going off the deep end and/or dragging the only ones keeping me on the end with me. ( Read more... )

During this week of sleepless nights, whispers in my ear, and the ever horrifying realization that my heart beats not just for me----it came to me. My father’s voice whispered from a very different set of lips and my defenseless ears actually listened. That saying that you never listen to what your parents have to say unless it comes from someone ( Read more... )

Everyone that matters has either gone to bed or gone home. My mom is planning on killing my spring break and I was hoping to go to Momocon with L. I mean I was really looking forward to it---but knowing my mom and at this rate. . .I need to head off to materialized hell soon and hopefully find my guitar hero 2 if that bitch hasn't done anything ( Read more... )

Le sigh the first weekend of the second semester is over, and it sucks for me that this weekend ended yesterday instead of today. So for right now my ass is black and grey because I have absolutely nothing I need for a class where my ENTIRE FUCKING GRADE is participation based. Today is a lost day. I mean I’m prepared for my first seminar class ( Read more... )

Friday was a beautiful evening. I don’t remember if there were stars in the sky but all was pretty peaceful. Although a few people unexpectedly disappeared *cough Noah cough hack hack * t’was alright. There’s nothing that gives me more pleasure than to spend some quality time with a good friend. Depending on the person you can just sit around chill ( Read more... )

I've had my religious experience of the week so I think I'll be good. The butterflies are fluttering around and life at Bell is proving to be pretty dandy. Thanks to love our little circle is starting to be more open about the things that piss us all of. I'm glad I can just beam my thoughts into Rory and he'll say them when I have a something to ( Read more... )

Today is the best day of my life and no arguement and no craptastic happening will change that. On this Saturday September 30 at 3:30ish PM I've gotten back that piece of me that's been so far away all these years. Although it has only been six years---these years have been longer than eternity when the heart of my soul was missing.