I am almost at my one year mark at work! This is such a great accomplishment at this company as I have been the 2nd-most senior employee here. No, this is not good, ha. It has been a long year of exhausting, super slammed days with 100% turnover in the midst of a merger. I have learned a lot about corporate politics and how I don't necessarily play ( Read more... )

Just doing what I do! Enjoy yourself tonight! Don't worry about me, I'll take care of dinner for myself and so on.

Why can't I be like that?

Everything ended up being fine as usual. Why can't I ease my anxiety? Why can't I just let it go and trust him? Have I been too damaged? I want to work on being more present and not try to control

I swear, everytime my therapist asks me how things are going, my initial response is "good". After a few minutes into our session, he looks at me and tells me that it seems like lots is going on. This is my life. I mean, everything is relatively good because we are "always ok", right? Isn't perspective an amazing thing ( Read more... )

Had lunch with my dad today. He doesn't work in the city anymore and fell off for a little while. I let him be and focused on my mom's lumpectomy and follow up appointments. It's been about 10 months or so since I've seen or spoken to him ( Read more... )

I was walking to the train and walking toward a guy that was acting funny, swaying, almost falling over. Another man didn’t give him any attention as he walked past. There was a bag of groceries on the ground near this guy and he was eating what seemed to be Chihuahua cheese. He didn’t seem drunk so I asked if he was ok and he said he was a ( Read more... )

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It's been a while since I took the time to get my thoughts together in this safe place. Sometimes this feels like such a feat, similar to avoiding yoga when I need it most. It just goes to show that it really is difficult to show up for yourself through these times ( Read more... )

Aaron has been stressed lately with getting his things together for his probation deadline, which he put off, even last week. He's been feeling really anxious with his position and possibly stepping down, his parents stressing him out about the bike he has to build and sell on top of trying to relax and heal his body. He never was good at sitting ( Read more... )

The last few weeks have been wonderful and challenging at the same time. It's understandable given my partner's circumstances and it is my choice to support him through such confusing, trying, low and inconsistent times ( Read more... )

He texted me: "Baby, i know we aren't on the best of terms but i need to get to target ( Read more... )