The kids snuck into the pool at school at night to party. Im sure there was no alcohol consumed for those underage. It looks like fun, there are cute boys there. Blair and nate are making out. I cant hear what theyre saying cus karens blow dryer is too loud. Ok I closed the door. Chuck is sitting in the lifeguard chair! Theres some sort of ( Read more... )

it took me a while to get it. which is weird, because it used to come so naturally. but then everything happened, and i think i became a lot more selfish there. i'm in it for me. do not walk all over me when you're upset. but it wasn't really being stomped on. it was just trying to cope. but i think it's the end for them and that sucks a lot too. ( Read more... )

it sucks. i selfishly want it all to blow over. what a terrible friend i can be sometimes.

i love my school. well besides the INFINITE PILE OF READING I ALWAYS HAVE TO DO. i love that you can tell they actually care and that he actually took the time out to say i hope you're feeling better, no doctor's note needed, i hope you can make it to class on tuesday, britt and bri can catch you up in the meantime. it just reassures me that i'm in ( Read more... )

i feel the relief. lauren says thats how you know you did the right thing. and as it was wrapping up i got in this really good mood and started cracking jokes and for a second i was like wait..why am i doing this? and i had stopped crying and i realize it was because i was happy it was ending. there's no more pressure. i don't have to fake it ( Read more... )

its funny how something happens and then everything melts away. i go back to school tomorrow :)

i just need to leave. everytime someone comes in my room i'm irritated from the second they start talking. i just want to be left alone to do my own thing without having to answer to someone or go run someone else's errands and i don't even feel like writing about it but suffice it to say that i cannot wait for august 22nd. i'm just done with ( Read more... )

OMG. SERIOUSLY? i am SO PISSED OFF. i love that im so INFORMED in my house. i wake up and my parents are gone so i call my mom to find out where she is and i get "at GRANDMA'S," like its the most obvious thing in the world, im sorry no one fucking tells me anything how am i supposed to know that? "so that means i can't leave?" and then she asked ( Read more... )

people seem to think it was a really super thing for me to do. honestly, initially i thought i'd made better decisions in my day. i instantly regretted it and although i guess it turned out okay i still felt like i was meddling where i didn't belong. like i was stepping over a line. but apparently i wasn't. shrug ( Read more... )

i just realized that it's not the end for me. and that makes everything a lot brighter.