i just dont feel like being alive today i wanna run away from my life and myself.

Happy Valentines Day.  XOXOXOXOXO

my mom just informed that im next to be hired at her work! FUCKIN FINALLLLLLY.

Heroin ( Read more... )

I had such a good day/night with chris yesterday. it was just like amasing. today i feel like shit but i guess i can say it was worth it.

i cant sleep ( Read more... )

i cant dael with myself like this. i hate this. i feel so fuckin alone right now i just wanna die.

i was just in the kitchen making rice for dinner and i look down.....and sittin right on the edge of the counter is a ...klonopin? wtf? whereeeeeeee did it COME FROM?~ i havent had any for a few weeks now.............so it couldnt have been sittin there the whole time..it was in a spot where if anyone wiped the counter (the counters get wiped a ( Read more... )

im fuckin lonely and ready to fuckin explode or something. like seriously just start flipping out and throwin things. id like to rip apart my entire bedroom just to get some anger out. i cant take being alone with myself. alone in my head. alone alone alone alone. i hate the kind of lonliness where even when someone is physically in the ( Read more... )

chris came over for a lil while this afternoon. that was nice. =) made me have like a better day than i have in probably the last month ( Read more... )