really trying to work hard at this confidence building thing...it is very hard.. the fact that i am working on it, i really get a sense of all the negative thoughts that i have...and boy is it a lot...wouldn't it be easy if you could really know if someone loved you or not,,,,or if you would get hurt....but life is never that easy...never black and ( Read more... )

whether people believe it or not....sometimes i have self-esteem issues...which is why often times my pessimistic side comes out..when i am by myself i feel as though nothing can conquer me, but once someone comes into my life, I feel as though I am going to get hurt..I hate feeling like that and that is why today I am going to promise, that I am ( Read more... )

HERE I AM AT WORK,,LIKE ALWAYS...STRESSED...JUST WHEN YOU THINK EVERYTHING IS GOING WELL,FUCK...A BOMB DROPS..IT SUCKS WHEN YOU FEELING LIKE YOU ARE SO HAPPY THAT NO ONE CAN FUCK IT UP FOR YOU, BUT THERE IS ALWAYS SOMEONE THAT WILL FUCK IT UP...AND IT SUCKS WHEN IT IS THE PERSON THAT YOU CARE SO MUCH ABOUT...LIES...OH MY GOD...DO I HATE THEM..I TRY ( Read more... )

here i am...sometimes i feel like i think way too much...my mind is all over the place all the time...at times it can be a real good thing, but other times it is just a pain in the ass ( Read more... )

so here i am at work tired as all hell...why i have no idea...this school and work full time schedule is vry hectic..sometimes i wish that i was rich so that i didn't have to work...maybe one day i will be, if all this work pays off...i am feeling happy today and fulfilled. i am feeling good and believe me when i say it is a good feeling..the only ( Read more... )

so as many people may know me and rony got back together...it feels so good.. i missd him so much..he just makes me feel so different than any other person had ever made me feel. i still worry that something might go wrong, but i think i am relaxing a but. not too much...because you could never let ur guard completely down...honey i know sometimes ( Read more... )

here i am at work!! tired as all hell!! i have a lot of work to do and am kind of stress..hopefully i will be able to get through this and get good grades.law school was been entering my mind a lot lately and i really think i am going to go through with it. i think that i will be good at it!! get paid to lie nothing better than that..lol..what type ( Read more... )

Here i am at work again!! today is going to be a slow day, but things sure do pick up tomm..going to drive me crazy! thank god tomm won't be crazie night class,,,pretty much laid back and i will be home by 7:00 if i don't chill with prieto!! talking about prieto..'my blood flowing to all different parts,river started flowing, screw that volano ( Read more... )

here i am at work and am kinda stress..i say kinda because i am trying no to think about it...yeah yesterday i heard some news that i really did not want to hear at all...and here i am AGAIN in an awful situation..what sucks now is that i have no type of emotion...i really thought that i wasn't going to have to deal with this shit again,,but guess ( Read more... )

i am at the school library right now and didn't go to class.. guess i needed a break...but no matter what i promise to myself that i will go to all the remaining classes no matther what the circumstances may be...i have to do well and in order to that i have to go to class and handle my business...i will go to all classes unless an extreme ( Read more... )