Okay so this whole relationship thing gets harder and harder. I have a problem with searching for things and we all know that phrase "seek and you shall find" i hate looking, it makes me feel bad about myself. I don't think i look because i don't trust the other person, but more because of my insecurites. I saw my mother do it and I hated it and ( Read more... )

Here I am at work. I started a new job about two weeks ago. So far it is going well and I hope that it continues to go well ( Read more... )

Here I am at work, which I despise, but at least I have a job. I am trying to work on my self-esteem, which has greatly decreased in the past two years. I need to feel better about myself and think about myself with more optimism. I started Salsa classes a week ago and absolutely love it. I feel like nothing else is around me. I have so much fun ( Read more... )

I just want to know how long does it take for someone to make you their everything. What is so bad for wanting someone to call you when you just left, just because. Or say I love you, just because. I want to be that special person you can't live without. I make you my everything, now it is time for you to make me your everything. Show me you would ( Read more... )

I hate this so much. The constant memories that haunt me day in and day out. How can I let go? Is the only way letting go of him? These past months have been so difficult for me. I have no idea if he is the only thing causing so much mental pain or if it is the other factors in my life. I feel like I have hit an all time low and I have no idea how ( Read more... )

wow as i look at many things, i have come realize that i have become a big mess. i have lost control of many things especially myself. my mind plays with me and it is so hard to control it. i finally have told my boyfriend how i feel about all the things that were on my mind and boy does it feel good. although it caused a lot of anger on both sides ( Read more... )

wow it has been a long time since I have written in this journal. I have to say a lot of things have happened, both good and bad. I am still with my boyfriend. I am happy that we have made it this far and hope for it to continue. I know that their are things that we both need to work on, but hopefully we will work on it together and this ( Read more... )

This weather is horrible. I am here at work and I am thinking about many things. But that is nothing new, my mind is always on the go. I have been trying to figure out why I have so many negative thoughts in my mind all the time and I have come to the conclusion that is more than one thing. There are many things that contribute to much of my ( Read more... )

here i am...back to work...it suck coming back to work in this type of weather, but hey i made it. i was on vacation last week which was kinda cool. i did a lot of my xmas shopping which was good. my cousin came from pr and to be blunt, she is getting on my damn nerves and i can't wait for her to go back..she is a pain in the ass, throwing low ( Read more... )

i know many people, but not many people would i consider true friends. I have a select few and that is it.. and to be honest that does not bother me at all. some people think it will eventually bother me, but the people who have stuck with me through thick and thin are still there and that is what makes me happy. i don't care if i have two or ( Read more... )