i shed these robes
i shed my skin
i shed the makeup from my face
who am i trying to kid
there's no one to impress here

the ghost of my facade still lingers
outside my doorstep
i step into it
and we merge when i leave this place

take off my earrings
they weight my head down
there's too much
and not enough
inside of that space

i can't write under these lights ( Read more... )

i know i'm over thinking this ( Read more... )

look to my left
    and i see the marks
    from drunken nights passed
    a semi rude
    semi conscious awakening

where am i?
       but at least i know
    who the fuck you are ( Read more... )

Where is my mind? Where is my heart?  How have I lost this many friends in this short of a time? How have I lost friends at all? I understand distance (geographically and in character), but this abrubt? What do I do to bother people? Honestly. Because I'm as non-confrontational as it gets. I try to keep people I like around. A lot. I enjoy really ( Read more... )

let the after image wrap around my floating blurred reality
skin crawling in ecstasy warped in my mind frame

my fingers slip behind my head
hanging onto something barely there beneath me

into the open air you throw your words ( Read more... )

I feel a lot better today, as if some one came in my dreams and talked me out of my bad thoughts. I can't remember much of what happened in those dreams, but I woke up feeling inspired and at least a little bit alive ( Read more... )

So I'm sitting here in the dark looking at a computer screen feeling so fucking alone. I'm aware of the people I know, the people I can go to, the people who have reached out to me before, but at this point I just don't care ( Read more... )

I started drinking coffee again. To most people, that statement would evoke little concern, but it's something that shakes up my whole system. I like how caffeine is a drug that allows me to control it's consumption, as well as being socially acceptable. People don't think that drinking coffee would alter your reality. Or I guess I should put it ( Read more... )