the sun is up. all the way. and I started working on this speech 4 hours ago. I have nothing to show for it. The fact that I am writing in here shows that I never really got into. I have a fear of order. Too much organization and I feel caged in. Like I have boundaries and expectations. It's an easy subject. I know plenty about it. I'm ( Read more... )

I have a cough. I feel trapped in my room. like it's really starting to make me panic. If my lungs didn't hurt so bad, i'd go for a walk in a second. They kill to get any kind of physical, though. I've never had a cough like this before. It will last 2 weeks. The doctor said there is nothing I can do about it. John was so good about it all ( Read more... )

Who flies kites at night?

( we do. )

i feel like spending money i don't have on sunglasses and summer clothes. there is nothing more frustrating than the sun being so awesome and at the same time so lame because it hurts my eyes so much and is too warm for the clothes i have here ( Read more... )

( your attitude bites. )

Choose one of your favorite bands and answer each question with titles from some ( Read more... )

I don't like today.

I took an extra day's vacation monday. I got home last night and missed all my classes, by all i mean 2. It was awesome though. John and i walked my dogs. john lost his cell phone, that has been a pain in the ass. I got a kite for easter and today would be the perfect day to fly it. instead i am being tired and hermitlike and forcing myself ( Read more... )

I'm having such terrible self-image and confidence issues lately. it's so irritating. i'm sure not only for me. I hate feeling hungry, but i hate being so chubby more. this is so silly. i know it is too, but i won't let myself eat. I can't help feeling like john is giving me hints that he thinks that i am an unhealthy weight as well. i could ( Read more... )

i feel incredibly content right now for some reason. i think spring break was really good for me. I feel like i am home sitting in my room next to my plant looking out the window at those ugly "projects" with the green doors. I love this feeling i'm having right now. i think most of it has to do with the fact that i finally got all my clothes ( Read more... )