23...twenty-three...twenty               three.
wow
in twenty-three days im gone. im leaving this place for a very long time.granted i may make it home for some holidays, but other than that, i will most likely actually lose contact for real with all of these people and all of their drama that i have been looking forward to having off my shoulders ( Read more... )

im afraid of trusting people. im afraid of never being able to fully trust the peson that is right for me. what if hes staring me right in the face, but i just cant make myself trust him enoug and eventually my paranoia boils over and he gets too tired of it. what am i supposed to do then? i dont want to hassle him and keep asking him stupid ( Read more... )

( this questionaire came up when i was going to update my journal..so i filled it out )

Rule 1: Do Not Get Caught.
no matter what it takes, do not ever get caught in any situation, thing, or person that you do not need to be caught being in/doing/seen with. make sure that you keep your stories straight, and that there will be no interference. be careful. be smart. know how to bullshit before you ever try it.

Rule 2: Don't Be ScaredDo ( Read more... )

i must have recently met an inspiring person

( somewhat EDiTED:can you keep up? )

after i figured out what it meant, i realized the extent of my spite

( wrath )

( humor )

oh, im falling apart. i havent wanted to cry this many times in such a short period of time since i was three or something.
zoloft, anyone?

...and i half-way amuse myself as i wallow in my pathetic excuse for sadness

true or false: (bold the true)

Im unbelievable
I own your soul
The devil is everywhere
I have/can pick your mind with ease
I need a boyfriend
I need someone that will care about me
love

my state of mind is illegal. i shouldnt feel this way. i can hardly focus on the present. not that im stuck on the past or obsessing over the future; i just cant focus on life. i feel out of reality. its oddly pleasing ( Read more... )