dammit i am still quite lonely. it always goes away and then comes back again and i feel like no one wants me to be there. it's quite sad. dammit i am becoming way to emo. i hate that label. same with punk, and indie and every other label there is. why can't we just be ourselves and be appreciated for that. i just don't get people sometimes. or ( Read more... )

hmmm i am bored and i don't wanna do my history. so i will enlighten you all about my feelings. well i am kinda bored. been playing alot of warcraft lately. it's a pretty sweet game but after a while it just gets super hard cause you run out of gold and such. yah i am a nerd i know but i got nothing better to do. I have am also kinda lonely. I ( Read more... )

yah i changed my mind about deleting my livejournal. don't know why. well nothing is really up. i have been smoking cigarettes way to much and i know it but i still don't stop. i guess that's what nicotine does to you. i haven't smoked weed in such a long time either. i don't really have a desire to either. it's kinda weird. i have some choir thing ( Read more... )

thanksgiving was fun i saw my cousin for the first time in a while. we tried to eat so much that we would pass out. it didn't happen but it was still fun. well i am sick of livejournal so this is my last entry see you all later.

man it was so sweet i made a snow sculpture in my front yard. mostly inspired by calvin and hobbes. i have been reading those comics alot lately. even though i am fifteen there are still some truths that i can see in them. they make me smile alot. yah i went to the school shrink today. it wasn't that bad. i think they think i have problems or ( Read more... )

well it's almost midnight and i should be in bed but i took a long nap today so i really don't feel like sleeping. This weekend was very fun but at the same time in the back of my head there was that thought constantly sitting there laughing at me making me sad. Well friday kinda sucked alot. except for like the first time ever i actually enjoyed ( Read more... )

man i hate how i always get so paranoid about absolutely nothing. it is really irritating, cause then i get depressed and that's just no fun. oh well at least the simpsons is on and it is the one with legal medical marijuana. so far it's quite funny. hahah yah...

i am so fucking pissed. my god damn dogtown and Z-boys dvd won't fucking work on my fucking playstation. this fucking sucks. well i am down bitching about stuff now.

god dammit i had the shittiest weekend ever not that you care. all i did was get high on friday and play halo for four hours. well i know none of you are gonna read this so whats the fucking point. maybe i should just go to lhs i think i would enjoy that much more then carmel, there is really nothing keeping me there anyway, cept maybe street ( Read more... )

god tonight was the biggest waste of a night ever. and still i am just sitting here online. i probably ought to go to bed. maybe i will skateboard some more. i miss that i used to always skate at like eleven at night. it was very calming. oh well seinfeld is on, looks like i am gonna just sit here for at least another half hour. oh well.