feel. feel. feel.

today she said it wasn't working. in the car. we were talking about last night. and i froze. and i fear i am still frozen by words. all these words that effect people. i say them. you say them. everybody says them. and it hurts like winter hurts. it hurts like every failure made into one. i dropped her off and drove away, wondering what i might ( Read more... )

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the hair on my arm grows back after my last tattoo. another hot air balloon on a basket string, but this one has a whale swimming down my wrist. "it's been a while," is all i say. since ive sat down to give my brainheartshackles a moment to breathe. somehow i forgot about blue and yellow. i put it on my arm but i still forgot. it used to own ( Read more... )

my life has grown a perspective all its own. roots deepening in the ground of my formidable days distend and lengthen into some semblance of adulthood i once thought was permanent. not as permanent as the minds retrograde into the memories and kinesthetic upflowings of nostalgia. we walk the gray days remembering blue. we shift the mirror view to ( Read more... )

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i dreampt up a christmas that never happened. one with us as a family. mom and dad together, putting up the tree by the window. through a home video never recorded, i saw my four year old self cutting out pictures with my seven year old sister, speaking in my small voice of more layers and asking my father, "will you cut my finger nails, daddy?" ( Read more... )

we are a many layered species. we are some of us filled with tears. some of us formed out of stone while the insides stir an unhappened thing. all of us reaching ( Read more... )

how momentary this will be... a fleeting touch, exposed and wounded.

do you think we could heal one another?