Last night I fell asleep at like 11. Jean was supposed to come over after she got out of work at midnight but ash must have locked the door cuz she couldnt get in so she had to go home. My phone was on silent and i missed her calls. I feel bad ( Read more... )

i'm sick of doing this ( Read more... )

my imagination's much worse.

i make up stories in my mind. that could be true
but hardly ever are.

117. fuck

it's cold.
where's the sun??

it's been a ridiculously stupid week.
there were no fireworks yesterday because of the rain.

i went to fish co. with eliza and ashley for eliza's birthday. that was actually fun.

it's thursday. almost friday. almost a week. GAH

my dreams are like...never fantastical. or magical...or impossible.
there is nothing far fetched about them.
they are normal such as everyday life when i'm awake.
and it sucks.

usually the worst it gets is exaggerated.
i want excitement.

i think maybe if i excite my waking life, then my dreams will follow suit
or maybe i just think too much.

tomorrow is the family picnic
then sunday is ashleys birthday celebration..i want to get her circus tickets but have no idea how to get them yet. ticketmaster.com i guess
but i think i'll wait.

yesterday was nonnie's bday. she's still goin strong!

nothing really cool happening.
i'm pretty much a home wrecker. that's about it.

how about i just spent a ton of money on the music essentials kit and memory card for my phone and it's only compatible with windows on a PC. fuccck that verizon ( Read more... )

sunglasses inside. it's already climbing to 80 outside ( Read more... )

i am going to the doctor's today.
for sickness, anxiety, etc.
and i know it's going to be bad. i don't want it to be
but i have a feeling.
scaryyy.....

it definitely could be worse.
of course, it's not always rainbows and butterflies. i know
but i don't need this.