i'm listening to the Postal Service... and the one thing that i want the most right now is the one thing that i absolutely cannot have anymore. not even once. i hate that feeling.

my neurologist appt. is on monday. wish me luck.

xoxo

shane and i got our car. and i got a second job. i bartend and waitress at rocky's roadhouse now. it's pretty fun in there. i know how to make all kinds of sweet drinks now. =) how exciting ( Read more... )

i knew i'd heard those notes before,
tho i hadn't in awhile.
but when i heard them again,
oh, how they made me smile.last night was pretty tits. good talk with justin. great talk with God. amazing night with shane. oh and not to mention, yesterday was our 6 month ( Read more... )

i think i can make it now, the pain is gone
all of the bad feelings have disappeared
it's gonna be a bright sunshiny dayi've eliminated so much and so many from my life that it seems almost depressing, but honestly, everything is so much clearer now. when your "true" friends are put to the test, to be there when you need them most, and they fail ( Read more... )

there are so many emotions in my heart right now that i wish i could pour out into words or paint a picture of exactly what i feel or write a song that can make you all know just what i'm feeling. but i'm not that skilled. i can't even list them. it's so muddled and confused that i can't even tell what i'm feeling. i think that it is so many ( Read more... )

miss me ( Read more... )

so i'm moving out of chris's tomorrow ( Read more... )

i wish it had a steering wheel, so i could just make it go wherever i wanted it to.

i have cuts and gashes on my hands and i have no idea where they came from ( Read more... )

i couldn't breathe last night, so i had to go to the dreaded emergency room. turns out i have bronchitis and asthma, and the bronchitis triggered an asthma attack. i felt like i was trying to breathe through a little pinhole the entire night and it was scary. plus it just sucked cuz i was in the ER for like 5 fucking hours. from like 1am to 6am. ( Read more... )