My computer is completely fucked up again. I hate technology ( Read more... )

If he still loved me, today would be our 6 month anniversary.

I cannot wait for school to be over. Summer could not POSSIBLY get here soon enough...

Apparently, I'm disgusting.

Ok, I would like to clarify something. I had fun the other night, but not because I kissed people. I miss my boyfriend, well, ex-boyfriend. He's the only person I want to kiss, the only person I can imagine loving, the only person I want to be with. Unfortunately for me, I STILL have the incredibly bad habit of fucking everything up and I did ( Read more... )

Wow...I feel like shit. I still haven't been sleeping regularly. In the last 72 hours I have slept MAYBE 6 hours. Last night my friends and I stayed up all night drinking and having fun. It was definitely a worthwhile experience, even though I feel like CRAP. I kissed 3 girls and 1 guy...SHAME on me. hah! I'm not sure the guy should count, ( Read more... )

I cried today...oh, I cried so big. I thought I was doing better, I thought this was getting easier...I'm not, it's not. I still love him so much, I still want him with everything that I am. I can't stand being so completely rejected by someone I love so completely. Earlier I wanted to talk to him and he said we could talk...so I waited...and ( Read more... )

I am incredibly tired, all I want to do is crawl into bed and forget today exists...lately, that's all I have wanted to do with EVERY day though. I'm doing much better; I think I may actually be closer to normal, or at least on my way there. This past twenty four hours is the longest I've gone without crying since last Monday. There were some ( Read more... )

You know, if I quit letting people in they can't disappoint me. I woke up to his ringer on my phone...you can't imagine how THRILLED I was. He said to come see him...I jumped out of bed, threw on clothes, brushed my teeth and went...stupid, stupid me. See, when he said he wanted to see me I actually THOUGHT he MEANT it. When I got down there we ( Read more... )

So, it's been a week since the man I love decided he can't be with me. I haven't slept right since then. I cry EVERY day. My throat hurts, I have a stomach ache, and it's that time of the month. My face is breaking out HORRIBLY. Oh yeah, and todays my birthday; I predict I will get nothing and do nothing fun...if I'm right, I'll be miserable, ( Read more... )