Merry Christmas. You know, I quit believing in miracles far too long ago to remember why. I remember believing, knowing without seeing, having faith that no matter what happened life would even itself out. It's an empty way to feel, and I can say that wih certainty...a week ago I was frozen with the agony of despair, now my every desire is becoming ( Read more... )

I'm happy, so why can't I just be happy? I'm with the most wonderful man I've ever met, I'm living (mostly) independent of my parents, I work somewhere I actually like...but I find reasons to spoil my own fun. When I hate my job, that can be my focus; when my relationships fail, that can be my focus; when I have to do everything my parents ( Read more... )

Damn...now it really has been a minute. I moved...only across town...but the house is much better, despite my new roommates. I work as a server now, at a lil restaurant called GiGi's...it's decent money and kind of fun, if exhausting. Matthew is still wonderful, most of the time anyway...it's just that we get along so well when we fight it tears ( Read more... )

Everything is...well, everything just is. I'm content with my life right now, almost anyway...I'd still like to move OUT. Matthew is still wonderful, and that's not so much surprising as it is just wonderful. Did I mention I am happy? Because I am, for the first time in long time.

It's been forever since I've posted on here. Since the last one ( Read more... )

Everyone is doin a lot better, my mom too (kind of). She had another stent done today (for a total of nine), but they decided she wasn't a good candidate for open heart surgery- which we consider a bad thing. She has damage in her heart that they can't get to without it, but they don't have a lot of faith that she'd make it through it...that ( Read more... )

Wow...I don't know where to start. First of all (even though this is the least of my problems) my parents really disapprove of my boyfriend. To the point where he's not even allowed at the house, which is incredibly frustrating. So last night I was at work and my sister called to tell me that my mom has congestive heart failure, an infection ( ( Read more... )

I am so disenheartened. I try to be picky, I don't want to be with just anyone...but no matter how careful I am, I always end up with someone who all but TRIES to break my heart.

I am tired all the time, I am tired of men and their bullshit...I'm going to bed before I scream.

I have been broken up with Pac for a minute now, and, until last night, I had managed not to fuck with him. Key part of that sentence, "until last night." I don't even know how it happened...seriously. I was high than a BITCH and he managed to get to me...it was good, definitely not regreting it, but I hate that I let him get to me. You know ( Read more... )