I always knew I wasn't cut out to be a parent.... But I didn't realise that it would grind me down as much as it is. I had a full-blown anxiety attack last night, first one ever, I thought I was going to die. I'm terrified I'm on the verge of an awful, awful brain blip and I don't know what to do. I feel utterly, utterly alone. :(

I'm sat in my hostel on Ocean Drive right now, sipping a beer and feeling a bit heady after grape vodka cocktails. Mostly I am feeling triumphant at my survival of this trip but above all I am feeling a deep sense of excitement at the prospect of seeing all my friends in just 28 ish hours. But also my boy. I miss him. I've missed a lot of people ( Read more... )

Do you know what?? I really fucking love my friends. Not all of them. Some of them I only like. Others I tolerate. But some of them I really, really love.

Right now I am spotlighting the wonderful Miss Holly Peterson for loves. Because she makes me smile. And she's pretty. And she doesn't mind me shagging her ex boyfriend.

<3 ( Read more... )

I really don't feel well.

And I can't actually focus on anything.

Today sucks royally.

Urgh, I'm really tired today. REALLY tired. MSN is a bad thing. Talking to someone you get on really well with on MSN is even worse. 3.30am is NOT a good time to be trying to type, laid in bed, with your LEFT hand. No sir-ree. But making up emense Zombie battle plans at 3.30am, in bed, with your left hand, does kind of make up for the tiredness ( Read more... )

It wont go away.

Some one take me out and make me think of something else?

i love the pineapple.

the junior senior video.

sometimes i do impressions of it.

i did one a minute ago.

it was cool

i rock

i banged my head off the computder while doing it.

caroline klaughed.

i use far too many spaces/

because i am drunk.

i quite ,like fat boy silm ( Read more... )

Dear (shit) people on my friends list,

Er....... Hello? Updates? Where?

You all suck,

Disgruntled Flange.

Dear (cute) people on friend's friends lists,

I don't mind if y'all update too. I like to stalk, I mean, READ, your entries too.

Awaiting in ernest,

Spangelina

Dear people on my friends list,

Can someone update please? I have nothing to read.

Thanking you in advance,

Flange