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[anmmurdock]

I had this young guy I took under my wings to train as a soldier.  Just learned that they are shipping him to Afghanistan.  I hope he will be safe.  Again it makes me wish I could go, to look out for my fellow soldiers.  But I am the go to guy, the one that makes things happen on the Rear Det., so here I stay, both good and bad.  Took the day off

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[onice_kalypso13]

Oh my friend, I've spoken my peace - so your life is yours to live and is a gift......I'll continue to hold you in the light & pray......pray that you will embrace the beauty you have.....and have the courage to change what you know in your heart can be changed.

Many blessings always
&
hugs from WA,

J/A

[anmmurdock]

Wow, you changed your journal around. I was wondering who wrote me at first. I know you said what you said, and that is cool. It is still hard to manufacture feelings that aren't there. But, I remain faithful despite my longing heart. It comes down to the fact that I don't want to hurt my wife, I would hate to cause that kind of pain, so I suffer my battle in silence with the exception of this outlet. I am really blessed though, and I do realize it, just wish I had the icing on the cake.

[onice_kalypso13]

I did change my blog may I be the first to say, I am sorry to "surprise you"......Did you read this entry in my blog?

http://charlotteamalie.livejournal.com/298069.html

Particularly the poem......

I'm asking this b/c I hear you and as your friend I only want the very best for you always. I wonder if the kinder thing would be to set yourselves free to be loved the way you both deserve. I know this is a 180 from where I was b/4......I just trying to help you see all angles and viewpoints......

We're both good people, and we both make mistakes.....we are both perfectly imperfect!

Many hugs from Washington to you always!