This weeks goal is easy. Be under 135 by this time next week. I have been trying to break 135 for sooo long and it hasn't been happening. This week I'm going to be really busy with work and school starting so I should have lots of time to run around and not a lot of time to stuff my face. I haven't eaten yet today but I've only been up since ( Read more... )

I hate that one of my friends knows about me ED. She asked me to take her to get chinese food today because she can't drive and I told her I would but I wasn't hungry ( Read more... )

I bought cute underwear to wear for jake when he comes back from Ohio and I took a picture for him. I took a picture of it and I actually... this is shocking... liked my body?!


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Well when I shut Lexi out of my room to do my exercises she pooped on the floor. Sooo now she's in doggie time out and absolutely not going on a nice long walk. I guess I could bitch about my boy problems for awhile eh ( Read more... )

This morning I woke up, rolled over, and ate a nutrageous bar. I don't know what's going on. I don't want to be fat like my friends. Well they aren't all fat but whatever. I eat everything all the time. I can't stop. I'm back on birth control which doesn't help me at all. I want to be thinnnn. I doubt this girl wakes up and eats a ( Read more... )

buh I've been mad depressed the past few days. There was this kid Taylor I ended up falling for. Not too hard, but enough to have butterflies and shit. Things were really good for awhile but we discussed having a no feelings policy for whatever reason. And that was fine for me, I'm good at bottling things up. Anyway, he just ignores me for ( Read more... )

Today I am going to do well. I stepped on the scale and I'm 135 exactly. Back to my weight after finals. But I look so much fatter than I did at finals.. I don't understand it at all. My ribs are barely making an appearance and my hip bones kind of stick out but all I can see is the fat in my belly area. Don't even get me started on the butt. ( Read more... )

Alright. I am back on track. Yesterday was under 1,000 which.. isn't good.. at all. But it was much better than usual. I don't understand why people only notice weight loss when I start gaining it back. I was at work talking to this awkward kid that works there. And I snuck a little tiny potato wedge off of the warmer and ate it, and he was ( Read more... )

I've been really horrible... really. But I weighed myself yesterday and I've only gained 3 lbs (REALLY good considering how bad my like 2 weeks binge has been. I'm seriously disgusting). Today I was going to fast but I got called into work and it's near impossible to fast there. I work at a gas station making subs and pizzas. I have to be on ( Read more... )

Stole this from a girl on 24/7 because I know I'm going to need it ( Read more... )