It always hurts. There were things that felt right and there were things that felt wrong ( Read more... )

because i'm gay and i miss you. and you belong right here. next to me on the big red couch.

i'll also always know that he was very much a child. in a way, they all are. stubborn as fuck and arrogant as hell, every single one of them. assholes.

I've been pretty down for the last couple of days, especially yesterday.. today I just feel like healing. I felt my heart actually aching.. it hurt so bad and I wanted to cry, but I couldn't. There are some things that you lose sight of in life, but when you lose sight of life itself.. the world that once stood begins to sorta collapse. I feel ( Read more... )

Yes.. so I graduated and here I am.! I haven't really done a whole lot yet this summer except hang out with Aaron (which is yeah like one of my favorite things to do.) and Michael and Erik. We went to Mex one night and it was fun. Haha.. I love Aaron, he cut his ugly ass foot today on a broken bulb and was sulking for like an hour about it (nah ( Read more... )

Wow.. so yeah, its been awhile and no one ever reads this.. and that's cool ( Read more... )

I'm going to miss you so much Blake! :( You were the greatest guy to ever have around..

Wow, I've missed LiveJournal.. I like it a little bit better than MySpace, just because here.. I feel so secure like no one is reading my every thought.. especially now with the whole MySpace craze ( Read more... )

This feeling has been pressing on my heart for weeks. Is there a need to tell anyone or will they only bring me down? Even if there was a need, there was never an ear.. There is never one person I feel I could sit with and explain things to; not one person who could understand my pain, who would comfort me. You've looked straight through me.. ( Read more... )

Today was stupid. Every odd day is stupid. I get really weak starting in 3rd period, weak like I use to when I was a vegan. Then all my problems creep up on me during 5th period and I explode.. today was a near breakdown experience.. I still feel like crap, but I feel better. I won't get into anything though ( Read more... )