i really don't want to be known as boy-crazy anymore. i don't wnat that to be the main thing i think about, and i don't want to obsess over guys anymore. i'm giving up boys for lent :)

i don't know why i've been in such a bad mood lately. maybe it's because my birthday's over and i feel that i don't have anything to look forward to--you know like a low after a really big high...but kelli's birthday is coming up, and spring break, so it's not like nothing fun is going on! i think part of it is being stressed about school and ( Read more... )

i've been getting scared lately about my future. what if i don't end up liking the field i work in, or i'm not good at it, or i don't feel like i'm helping people? i'm really passionate about it, but i was also passionate about other stuff i started that now i don't feel like i'm doing much good in. i love my social work classes and they make me ( Read more... )

this semester has been crazy already. i feel so out of myself, i just can't be happy with myself right now, i don't know why not. i feel like i don't know what i'm doing, what i want, and i don't feel good about anything. i'm excited for my birthday and for some of my classes, but i feel like i'm not doing anything with my life. i haven't been ( Read more... )

since andrea copied me, i will now pull an "ssp" and write a cryptic entry. :) i'm glad that i have more of a sense of closure now. i'm glad that all this time thinking that he didn't think about me anymore i was wrong. i'm glad that now i know he did care about me, and maybe still does. i'm glad that i have moved on from this enough to just ( Read more... )

that thought scares me...this year has gone by sooo fast. i don't think i've ever been so busy or had as much fun. but i still feel like there's so much i need to do before i can go on to grad school, and i don't want to leave anyone here. i can't believe some people are going to be gone next year. and i realized i don't handle stress well. ( Read more... )

sometimes i just want to show him how far i've come, how much better of a person i am now, how mature and responsible i am. but i know i shouldn't have to prove anything to anyone else to feel good about myself. and i don't really know how much i have changed. for better or worse, i think i'm still much the same person. i have learned a lot ( Read more... )

THE RULES: List five songs that you are currently loving. It doesn't matter what genre they are from, whether they have words, or even if they're any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying right now. Post these instructions, the artists, and the songs in your blog. Then tag five other Xanga/LiveJournal friends to see what they're ( Read more... )

GO STATE!!! Can't wait for this weekend, and for GB to come, and for our big party, and to just have fun and not worry about school...even though I should be doing some work. come to 321 kedzie tomorrow night!

so it's been ages since i've updated. i guess i haven't had much to say, and i've been pretty busy so far. it's awesome being at 321 kedzie with four of my best friends, and i love junior year. but it's kind of scary that we're going to be leavign soon and have to figure out what we want to do. eek ( Read more... )