I dont care about anything right now..
but Im still really sad
wtf?

and Shaney if youre on this
I really do miss you even tho Im bad at keeping in touch
and I love you and I hope youre loving gainesville <3

omg if youre not good for me
then go away please.

so many people can go DIAF right now.

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I dont remember what my life used to be like
I dont know what I would have thought
if you told me 6 months ago
where I would be now
and what would happen
I dont know if thats good or bad
I do know Im happy and sad a lot
and at the same time every once in awhile
but Im never just medium
and thats tiring
mmm... :/

soo upsetting day
dont even know why really

Ive just been disappointed
and I dont understand
and I dont know how I let that happen :/

ok obvs procrastinating on myspace
I was looking at my page
and I get to the little info box
and it says
Status: Single
and I felt weird for a sec
and then thought to myself
wtf I'm not single

I had forgotten
just writing this down now
in hopes that it doesnt happen again
cause it is not a fun realization
and it just fucked my night up
:/

so today..
I was myself
for like 3 whole hours
not the new stupid, worn out me
I was really happy
and I laughed so much
it was really good
and of course it got killed
but its still good to know
I can snap out of this
and I will eventually
seriously a relief

I pretty much neeeed Izzy
summer's too far away and I miss her now :(

I really really cant
handle anymore disappointment

seriously
today's the last day
I'm gonna stop being dumb
start being realistic