i love how nobody commented on the one where my mom started punching me in the back and stuff..and i left the house..and shes a fucken moron.

i need to stay happy before this love dwindles away. i have a feeling part of it has to do with the way i've been lately. yeah. i don't know. i have a field trip today. i don't feel right. from not being home last night and from takin a bus for the first time in a real long time. i forgot to eat breakfast twice.. at julia's then i forgot i could ( Read more... )

last night my mom and i were fighting. she leaned over me on my bed to punch me in the back so i kicked her off my bed..so now i'm at julia's. i rode my bike here last night. i left a long note for her. without a phone number this time. i told her not to even come looking for me. besides that. i don't know what to write.

i missed my ride to school today so i had to walk. yeah. today's gonna suck. i can't wait to get home and talk to bob. i miss him soo much..i really need to get my grades up so i can go places again. i need to see him..and i need more comments on my ljs. damn it. i'm gonna die. my arm is twitching.

my ovary problem--i had to go to the hospital and get an ultrasound. fuck no i'm not pregnant. at first they told me i could have some serious life threatening disease and that i'd need surgery and would have to get an ovary out and would never be able to have kids and blah blah blah. what music to my ears right? then they said that in order to be ( Read more... )

holy shit it's friday. i don't know if i'm grounded or not for this vacation.. steven was right about that story..what do you say to something like that? haha. it made me laugh, yet it was disturbing as all hell..and it's something i'd want to read again..i don't know how to explain it. haha. ahh shit..Chuck Palahniuk is a good writer. wow. i ( Read more... )

i have less than 15 minutes to write this. bob & I had a heart to heart last night. i cried. but i'm happy we had that conversation or everything would probably have died away..that my friends..would be a sad sad day. hmmm. i hate this school. i really wish i could just drop out 'cause it doesn't seem like i'm getting anywhere. it's like...i moved ( Read more... )

i took one of these quiz things but it won't let me copy and paste anyting on this school computer. so im gonna type it...cause i wrote it down ( Read more... )

this weekend was supposed to be more fun. i mean..it was fun...but going to north hampton was definitely supposed to be more fun. i wasn't there long and there was no alone time for bob and i. it's horrible. i don't think many people really care if i'm there or not anymore. yeah. it's a sucky feeling. but anyways. friday night i got wicked fucked ( Read more... )

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