I have decided to get my GED. Now, to those of you that don't know, I am a high school drop out. Go figure right, druggie, drops out of school you are all probably thinking wow, dumb bitch. But, no I am actually pretty smart. I got good grades in school without even trying, all A's in fact. So, now you asking why drop out? Simply because I never ( Read more... )

I have decided to start fresh with this blog. A do-over, you could say. I wasn't happy with what I had use this blog for before, to be honest I am kind of embarrassed by my pointless rambles I had on here before. Plus I have changed so much in the past year I just wouldn't be able to write anything knowing I was probably contradicting myself. I ( Read more... )

Wow, I haven't been on in almost a year. So much has happened I don't even know where to start ( Read more... )

I haven't been posting lately mostly because I went to Rehab for drugs and when I got out my internet and phone and everything was taken away for a while, I am sad to say I am not totally clean, but at least not an addict. I will hopefully get back to posting in the near future but I'm not sure where my life will lead me.

Thanks,
Emmy

I know I haven't been on in a while... a lot has happened. I hit rock bottom. Well, where to begin ( Read more... )

Self medication is under way.

Today's cocktail:
.4 of heroin
10 mg of xanax
1 gram of weed
5 shots of tequila
2 hits of acid

It's 5 o'clock somewhere.

Everyday I stop and wonder how I got to this point.

I've never been good at relationships so it's no surprise Alex and I are pretty much over. I don't really know if it is classified as a break up since like I said I've never been good at relationships, so I don't know if we were ever classified as "together". I mean we were defiantly dating, and he was the only person I was dating but we never ( Read more... )

Well here is an update, got kicked out of the house, (hence why I’m staying at my friends shithole apartment with no electricity. Having to buy a cup of coffee from a local coffee shop just to use there internet to check my fucking e-mail.) Why you ask? Because my parents are fed up with my bullshit and providing for me. End of story.

You guys may remember me talking about how my friend Alex offered me bars (xanax) and as a recovering addict from them I was very close to caving and taking them. Well, I caved. I'm back to where I started just almost 2 months ago. It got to where it was too much to handle. All I could think about was bars and all the people I knew where to get ( Read more... )

I caved, bought the bars,
back to where I started.
End of fucking story.