yesterday was i could accept the bad day, but today i feel like shit. i want to crawl into a hole and die. i know you cant undo 2 weeks of work in 2 days, but its just the principle of the thing. losing so much control. ew ew ew ew ew ew. i guess today was okay, except i should have stopped at one sandwich, and the orange slices were terrible. I ( Read more... )

s o i took it upon myself to eat the whole pan of brownies. no temptations for tommorow i guess. i just cant really find that drive in me to be thin. i just dont care that much. when my sister comes i probably will feel like a fat pig but so what. seriously, sooo what. but still, im not going to eat until we are at uncle davids for dinner. thats ( Read more... )

saturday: 900
that is so much better than i thought. im not losing any weight though :/

thursday: like 2000
friday: like 6000. no joke.
tommorow is another day. i feel so gross plus my period nad shittttttttt. im going shopping tommorow to buy new (bigger) pants i will get a six but my fours will fit me by the end of sept. they basically have to.

...CAUSE STARTING TODAY THINGS ARE GONNA BE ALRIGHT

alright. ive disgusted myself for far too long. im not breaking fast until im with roxanne.period.

i am disgusting. cigarettes and diet pills, red bull and green tea forever. im gained five pounds. this is horrible.

losingggg control...

129 :]
i wont say just 9 more to go,
cause i know i'll tsill be too big then.

ew i absolutly hate how much i ate last night. i got really stoned and blammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm :)
but its cool, ima have an ice cream then tommorow i'll be back in business.

friday is where its at.