it figures that my courage would choose to bow out now

[anorexicbrownie]

Wow. Has it been ages since I've posted. I don't know who's around anymore. Things are good and horrible at the same time. I've succeeded in school, managed straight eyes and have some scholarship possibilities. My teacher's think I have promise and supervisor at my internship likes me and he's a very good worker to shadow

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[raceulfson]

I don't think the Lord requires you succeed, only that you try.

Anyway, consider another reason for feeling flat and listless: the weather has been weird and largely awful, and it's that ugly point in winter where the Christmas candy is gone and it's too early for Valentines. Keeping that in mind, I think you are doing awesome.

[anorexicbrownie]

Excellent point.

hm. Weather surely doesn't help, nor does less than steller sleeping habits. It could just be sleep dep adding up with everyone else combined. And aw, thanks. <3

[muffledlaugh]

Oh honey, I'm sad to hear you're having a bit of a tough time.

*hug*

School in general always brings a good amount of pressure, and I'm sure dealing with depression doesn't help that at all. But take pride in your accomplishments - excelling at school in the midst of everything is a big one.

[anorexicbrownie]

*hug* I'll live and it will get better, it just might take a little time.

Aw. Thank you. ._. Same to you and I hope life is going well or as well as it can.

[alasthai]

It does sound like depression, my friend. It could be a medicinal issue or a situational, or even a seasonal one, though.

So, keep working on doing the things which help you, thinking about the things which you have achieved (and congratulations on those great results), and working towards those goals (because scholarships rock).

[anorexicbrownie]

ha. I'm so lucky, I could have all three. >.>

Thanks. Some of that was luck and classes I excel at, but I did do some work. Goals are going well, at least and I need the luck on scholarships. Eee.

[tarleon]

Aw, you should know that you can always talk to me if you want to about anything.

If your path is anything like mine I'd like to think its a growth. I learned a lot about life via online, but actually living it has been much more fulfilling. Scary, but fulfilling.

Periods of intense pressure are kind of par for the course in Uni, even if you had been doing all the homework.

If I may offer a suggestion, it might be worth trying to get involved with a/some clubs at university, if they have them over there. That can help. Or, just start having coffee (I remember you don't drink it, but other people might and you can have a hot chocolate or something) with class mates who impress you or you respect. That seemed to work okay for me this time. Funny thing is that often they respect you if you respect them.

[anorexicbrownie]

Thank you. Do you mean geek stuff or emotional stuff?

I'm still working on the living part. I'm a bit of a hermit and don't tend to get far from home. School and internship is good for me though and gives me food for thought. I just need more people that love discussing things with me.

True enough.

Commuting complicates being involved on campus, its just utterly inconvenient. I'd have to spend about 2 and a half hours of commuting to attend a meeting, etc. I do stop and chat other students though or talk to them on facebook. I respect or tolerate most of them, so that works too.