i kind of hate panera. but that's nothing new. i got a voicemail today. it was from pacsun. i have an interview friday at 1. i want to work there. actually, anywhere that isn't panera. cool? cool. i went to see jarhead with megan, dom, david, sean, doug, and anna last night. mel and janca for drinks at caribou. everyone was there. everyone that ( Read more... )

new years eve was horribly busy for me. went to eastwood with megan, nick, and brooke in the morning. got a new shirt/underwear/earrings. getting my shoes shipped to my house. then dinner with my family at outback when we got home from the mall. traffic? oh my god, i hate it. then back home to pack stuff up for ian's...had a few minutes to waste. ( Read more... )

i seriously thought about quitting my job today. it's fucking ridiculous what we put up with. cori and i, that is. especially since we make less than everyone working there. fuck panera. seriously. cori does more work in 8 hours than i've seen niki do in a week. it's not fair that because she's been there longer than us she gets to push everyone ( Read more... )

my life is fun. in the last week or more, i've been spending time with dohar, megan, nick, anna, sean, and david. ian's home. that's fun. parties. no drunkenness, because i'm sweet like that. vodka slushes at sean's. sleepover. dirty minds and twister moves. the 40 yr old virgin. dinner with dohar. mmm olive garden. fuckin' spilt frappe mix all ( Read more... )

I'm not ready for all this responsibility. I'm 18 years old and I feel like I'm a mom. I get up to get the kids to school. Make arrangements for babysitters to be there if I have to work earlier than 9 and if I'm going to be home later than 3. I have to worry about whether or not my stepdad's going to come home. Which, most nights he doesn't. That ( Read more... )

once upon a time, i wanted to go ice skating. i still do.

the end.

i hate myself for knowing that i'm going to give in to him.

buutt...
i'm in love with pittsburgh. especially at night. the view from mt. washington is beautiful.

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i had a fun day/night. work wasn't half bad. phonecalls are sweet. megan is funny, i've missed her. dirty minds is one of the greatest games ever. so far. and soul calibur 3, too. i love my life, even though it may seem like i don't sometimes ( Read more... )

i don't believe in anything anymore.

i'm a holy trainwreck. and it's never mattered to anyone before, as much as you. i guess i don't really understand how you feel. or how you are. but i want to try. i wish i knew. you seem complete to me. and i envy that. in a way only someone as incomplete as i am can. is there something wrong with that?