Alex is:

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I had to make the decision today about whether or not I will be going back to camp this summer. I decided to request a leave of absence from school in order to go back. I am not entierly happy with this decision, but I think that if I had choosen not to go back that I would have also been unhappy with that decision. There are pros and cons to both ( Read more... )

I have about a million plans for things to knit for xmas. In fact I should be knitting now. I think that if I dropped out of placement that I might be able to get in enough knitting time to actually finish all of the elaborate projects I have planned. Sadly that is not a realistic possiblity. I just got back from the one of a kind show and now I ( Read more... )

Sick and sick is not good. Especially when I had to write an exam worth 60% of my grade this morning. I think that I passed, but it won't be much more than that. At times it seems like that is becomming the recurrent theme of this term. Probably better than the near the top of the class and depressed that I was attaining this time last year. Happy ( Read more... )

First and foremost I would like to say Fuck you. I put my time and faith into attending regular appointments with you in the hopes that you would be able to give me some strategies or at least offer some hope that I can overcome my current problems with social anxiety and return to my regularly scheduled life. You gave me nothing. In fact I think ( Read more... )

I just handed in the paper that I thought that I would never write and if nothing else it should be passable. I am now so very very tired and still must endure a meeting with a prof and a 2.5 hour PBT session. All I want to do is curl up and sleep. Sadly not an option ( Read more... )

So here's the deal: I am going to Alex's convocation on this comming Friday, which means that I have all of 4 days to figure out the solutions to the dilemmas that I will list mommentarily. Attending the convocation involves actually going to the ceremony, sitting in a crowded auditorium and watching Alex walk across the stage (hopefully ( Read more... )

I'm social anxious and it's no fun. It's not like I want to be home alone all weekend with nothing to do but school work and no one to talk to but Stewart my fish. I would like to go out with friends, even if only for a little bit. The thing is that I don't really have any friends here. Yes, getting together with people makes me so anxious that I ( Read more... )

Note to self: Please take care of me by feeding me and getting lots of sleep everyday ( Read more... )

My friends let me know that on a regular basis, and I don't have to make appointments for them to do it. But I do go to therapy. After years of wanting therapy I am finally getting some. Strangely enough I am in therapy at a time when I feel more stable and secure with myself than I have felt in a very long time. Hopefully telling a man with an ( Read more... )