...and a few hours later it got even worse....

This feeling is growing. I wish it would stop. I wish it would be back to normal. Don't know what to do. I wish I was to blame so I could change it. All the changing in the world on my part seems to get me nowhere. All the understanding in the world seems to get me nowhere. Nothing I can do will make things better. Patience is all I can rely on but ( Read more... )

Ever have something dangling right in front of your face and you just can't grab onto it because....well you know that you can't. And the more it dangles there the more frustrating it gets that you can't just grab it. So maybe you think you CAN grab it but the consequences are too risky and you figure you'll just never know because if you grab it ( Read more... )

Well I need to update from last Friday. Let's see. The tour with New Settlement Rogue, Bjelke Petersen Youth and New Mutants. I went to Lismore to play some dodgy little place in a room the size of my bedroom and at the gig there was about 12 payers and about 35 band members. That was cool. There was a pile-on every five seconds. Much jumping and ( Read more... )

Man I feel yuck today. If I want to see the rainbow I have to put up with the rain. I am a regular rainmaker right now ( Read more... )

When I will learn one day that the things I say and the stance I take on some issues are not exactly right and because of my stubborn nature I can actually hurt people by what I say. Just because I see something black and white does not mean it actually is. I've got a lot of growing up to do even though I am 23.

I just got back from the Frenzal Rhomb/ Day of Contempt / Strung Out show. Strung Out impressed me. I knew all the words I thought I had forgotten. DOC played so early we missed 2 of their songs. Everyone up the coast dances to hardcore like hip hop it's freaking funny to watch. Drunk kids wearing sXe shurts stumbling around and doing all that hand ( Read more... )

Boring day. I should study. I am not studying. I am lazy. Off to work soon. Boring post.

Last night I dreamt Jeff was at Greg's house when I got there for his birthday, where I arrived on a scooter I borrowed from a kid. I promised the kid I would get it back to him as soon as I got in my car and he said, "No worries, you can keep it because I have 30." So I got there and Jeff was inside and so were all these other people who who don't ( Read more... )

Last night we played with Godnose, Nob and Mouthguard. I missed Mouthguard, didn't get there in time. I don't care. Their singer is really rude and I have no time for somebody who is like that. Maybe he's not actually rude at all and just can't speak...but why is he a singer then if he can't speak. Makes no sense ( Read more... )