Killin Time

[anthony_russell]

Well Here I am I think with one of the last times I write I write in this thing. I have some time to kill before I go to my families to eat and then off to a party. It is odd how Just this week so many things have changed for me. I've been continuing to talk to the young one with some weird feelings about it. I'm almost for certain she wants me

Comments

[manderal]

Well, fun for you. I would just like to say that I hate you. I really do, and every other fucking guy that ever fucked with my emotions. As for that poor young girl I wouldn't touch her. You find every girl you ever meet and think about being with "different" and "special" and you feel as if you could tell them anything, whereas you couldn't before. Lies. And you play the gallant act, but it is in vain. God, people like you piss me off, and I am sad to say that I ever thought I had true feeling for you. And thanks for asking one of my best friends to sleep with you. That took some class.

I expected this

[anthony_russell]

Those are some pretty strong words... I'm sorry you feel that way but I can't say I didn't expected it. I knew it was a futile attempt to try and be your friend but I thought I would at least give it a try. I don't feel that "way" about this girl. I simply find her innocense charming. The main thing is that I'm not going to try and defend myself to you. I don't have to. All I have to say is that I'm sorry you feel that way about me. I'm also sorry that my life affects you, still.

Re: I expected this

[manderal]

No anthony you life does not effect me, the time I spent with you does, I don't mind that you have moved on, but I do mind that every girl you ever meet is just almost the one. It just cheapens the time I spent with you and how special you made me feel. I don't have to apologize for the way I feel. And YOU still affect me because I still freaking care about you, in a differnt yet still the same way. I am still upset about you going to Iraq, it still makes me cry. AND your stupid "I don't have to defend myself against you comments" No you don't, but I still have a right to my own opinion....watch out Anthony, you don't know what love is, and you keep convincing yourself you do.

Re: I expected this

[anthony_russell]

You know you might be right and I might be deludeing myself on what love is. I don't know, It's possible. I tried my hardest to get us to work but for once in my life I couldn't get it to. Even when I wanted it to. I learned alot from you and honestly I'm really glad I went with you. You are special in a way that I had never encountered before but we weren't obviously meant to be. I'm not going to explain myself to you on my current love life but what I will say is that I'm nowhere near close to love with anyone right now and don't intend to even try seriously dating until I'm alive and back from Iraq. Also before you tell me what love is you might want to look back into your own past. Other than that I'm glad to hear that you don't hate me and at least care a little.