i was just watching a passover play on the christian channel.. and the guy who played jesus had a MULLET!! hahahahaha.

goddammit. b's gotten in the kick of calling me 'duckie'- every time my mom comes over she asks if he ever calls me that. now he can say he does. it freaks the hell out of me though- makes me think i'm living with my mother (heaven help me). hehe- i let out an involuntary shriek every time- i think he know's he's got a serious weapon against me ( Read more... )

i guess i fantasize about death quite a bit. but never suicide- that's not my style. (usually just stick things out to the end for better or for worse) i just like to fastforward to when i'm old and lying in bed with everyone i love being happy that i've made it. i've earned that rest at last. i want the day i die to be a happy one- i want to ( Read more... )

a guy i hung out with once or twice in high school and once or twice at uwm (tom provost for reference) came into my work place. he seems to have changed. i remember him as this punk-flavored theater kid who shattered the stereotype at whs for what the prom king's supposed to be .. went to uwm and became that guy everyone seemed to know after ( Read more... )

just saw the play 'getting out' by marsha norman yesterday at uwm. it's about a woman who's spent most of her childhood in juvie and much of her adulthood in prison. when she finally gets out she finds it difficult to undo past wrongs and set herself up for any kind of happy honest life. it was a very very good play- i went mostly b/c ann was in ( Read more... )

christ. i just woke up sobbing in the middle of a really bad dream. i was back lifeguarding at the bottom of the big slide and this mother kept sending her infant down. every time i had to jump in and grab it out of course, and the baby was giving me this horrible look and begging for me to stop letting it go down. somehow i had no control over ( Read more... )

wow. how many more days till i'm old enough to be on my death bed? i can't even begin to imagine how many regrets there will be on that day.. i am absolutely ridiculous.

by any argument that could be given i turn out to be a very non-virtuous person. not NECESSARILY immoral (could be argued either way) but i'm soooo self centered and can be very manipulative. i would LOVE to think of myself as a generally good person, but that just wont happen. i wonder if anyone REALLY thinks of him/herself as a good person.. ( Read more... )

b won't stop singing the soref's carpet city song.

for a good month or so i've been looking at my uwm account on an almost daily basis to see if they ever got my hs transcript. no, no, no, no. i finally call uwm to see if they've gotten it and just haven't gotten around to processing it yet. no. they never got it. uh oh. call watertown hs and talk to the very nice, very reliable guidence ( Read more... )