What a wretched thing ...

to see a movie .. that tells you exactly how you fucked up

and how she most probably felt ... how fucking horrible

on top of everything else ...

"I am Bluebeard, and my" ... heart? .. thoughts? .. concerns? .. "is my forbidden chaimber as far as your concerned."

expressing with help from vonnegut

that 2 countdowns begins, one nonsensical (5 days to go), another is a line drawn in the sand, between me and this town, the goal extraction date is t-minus 3 months ( Read more... )

Well I suppose I should post an update ... because alot has happened ,... as usuall ( Read more... )

tonite was good .. though I was a jerk .. I guess all in all thats ok from time to time ... woah .. why am I still typing .. oh im drunk

Hah I totaly jus found Manda Rin from BIS's myspace page ... now do I do the ultra dorky thing and msg her n ad her .. hah!

So im not going to do the whole rundown of my trip, but it will suffice to say; Mission Acomplished .. I feel like I found a place .. on my own .. of my own accord .. that seems like a place to settle down in ... what you say?? Settle down?? Well I suppose its all in the wording and situation .. I guess ideas that have been flowing on in my head ( Read more... )

this will be a long, rough trip .. it has alot of uncertainties .. so? I will live this life like I said ... One day at a time, one foot at a time, and most certainly to its fullest ( Read more... )

So after these two weeks of emotional shit, and this weekend of being completely sick, I come about with personal revelations. Allison and I are, as it stands now, friends; which im perfectly happy with. I think in her explaining her needs it kinda clicked in my head what I needed, not that they are exactly the same, but it placed things in a ( Read more... )

Im hating life rite now,. last nite some sort of bug or food posion decided to enter my system and reak havoc on my gastroinestinal system ... to say ive seen the bathroom more than 20 times today would not be an exageration ... As it sits im at work about 7hrs late (yay sick time), I feel like shit, my stomach hurts, and my head is starting to get ( Read more... )