i really miss my local punk venue. this is probably the hardest moment of my life, you know, accepting its dead. understanding my dad was dead forever and for always was easier than this. this just cant be it. this just cant be life after the venue.

i am about to take a shower because i like warm water on my naked back. i like swimming pools and lakes because i like to be completely embraced by substance. my dream substance is cool whip. i wish i could be completely embraced in cool whip. make my dreams come true, sandman, make my dreams come true, sandman, make my dreams come true, sandman, ( Read more... )

i got my letter in the mail, so i decided i'd make a mixed cd. its a beautiful kind of communication, i reccomend it to everybody with fingertips and pencils. paper reccomended but not required. my nose has been dribble-dribbling for fourteen hours and its bothering me much. this is what you get for sleeping naked in a tent, in weather that is just ( Read more... )

last show ever at pirate studios in forty minutes til the last show ever at pirate studios.

all my money has been spent, at an indie show featuring dr manhatten. probably my new favorite band. who fucked up that leaning tower. and i had a beautiful series of interactions with a handful of human beings. new and old ones. old ones from sweet water mills, new ones from lindenhurst. oh and a beautiful dinner. we're not those kids, sitting on ( Read more... )

i put it in the machine and hot water flavored tea comes out and when i drink it i think horrifying thoughts about the finest lake county venue closing. i am not ready to lose you pirate studios, my god i am not ready to lose you. i am bringing a large steak knife to the venue to kill myself. i bid you all adeu. but spelt correctly. okay, goodbye ( Read more... )

some people don't age and that really scares me. i guess im not used to the thought of other peoples thoughts until recently. i guess when i truly realize that this is all just a dream, and that im just a supporting character in someone elses dream, is when ill truly be self-aware. kurt vonnegut would hate me for that remark, i know this, but ( Read more... )

this is this is this is a misconduct. report report. my computer is typing at the speed the electrons allow, four point four six four six five four one one one one one repeating. i am a computer glitch typing at the speed of electrons. hm. i write in three journals, three to many. this is shawn deactivating. this is this is this is. cory smith ( Read more... )

this is the anchorman reporting to you that the weather tommorow is absolutely perfect for picnics, and that in sports, today was a most excellent day. the party was astonishing and i think i really like someone new even though ive never really known this someone new until rather recently. this is the anchorman with his butterflies inside his tummy ( Read more... )

i had a dream where there was going to be a very bad storm where the sky was black and pink, and all my friends were at my house because we were going to dye my hair black and pink but instead we just watched the news and waited for the storm. apparently a man had driven off a cliff because of this storm, but its okay because he was a child ( Read more... )